Me and my first bf broke recently, and i were handling my feelings until yesterday, where i ended up crying until i fell asleep and where The void i feel increased, now i am on the situation where The only thing i have left to really enjoy my Life is just discord, basically using my PC and talking with my DC friends.
I live surrounded of people that usually makes half-homophobic jokes, where only my parents knows i am gay, and that maybe if my only 3-4 'friends' i have irl got to know, maybe i can lose them.
After knowing that my only real friends are on discord, The last thing I want is to lose them, and for it to end up being my parents' fault just because of the things that might happen, like roleplay, and those things that might appear on that group knowing that we usually talk about anything, i really care about that friends, and if i Lost them all and lost Discord would most likely make me want to disappear, since i don't have real friends and i have big trust issues, i am now just really worried about that, i have no other hobbies than just playing videogames and talking with my friends, i don't have any friend irl to Talk with about anything like i do with my dc friends.
And for what happened about that bf i had, i also realized that he prob didn't love me at all when i found out he didn't even deal with The situation and that he just let It slide.
Now i am just searching to make friends that i could meet irl just in case something happens.
I dont know how to finish all this entire text, so, i'll just hope someone can give me some advice on this situation.
#Having to go through a situation where I could lose what I have left
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I found out this Channel and i really think i needed to use it, and if someone reads that and does the best to understand what i said, thank you.