Depression time 😔

[abstract swallow]

so recently i figured out i was gay MLM havent came out to anyone excpet my closest friends and ive alwsys had this fruity accent to me i can voice any female chacrter kinda due to this my family is starting to keep distance from me and im keeping distance from them. Im really fruity all the time and i cant keep it in its gone to the point where im eating like one granola bar a day and pulling allnighters left and right i just feel alone knowing that ppl with always hate me where ever i go. I also have a problem with this at school ppl bully me for being fruity and zesty like. Its breaks a bit in me all those breaks throughtout school and home break a bit of me its so hard to keep going when ppl keep bringing me down. A couple days ago my grandmother told me to “stop being so feminine” reacting to my fruityness and im always on the emo goth side so i dont talk much but she later told me to “get over depression” and “depression isnt real” and its hard to deal with pain before. Its like im in a world where no one can hear my sadness and everyone thinks its some dumb teenager aditude. Im starting to think of commiting…
(But if u read all that thank you for listening)

[wary pulsar]

You are who you are being yourself is the most important thing about you. For the bully people always assumed I was gay and I am, but they bullied me for being so.I started earlier with Kung fu which I now proudly do for 19 years. For self defence would I advice you starting with some kind of fighting sport. It helped me in quite some situation. If you have just figured out your sexuality you are vulnerable, or so it was with me. Don’t let them take you down you got this. If you have questions about anything, my experience, my life then dm me I would gladly help someone be who they are.

[wary pulsar]

I need to ad a thing about Kung fu I absolutely do not condone violence but as self defence if it is important. There sometimes is no other way.