I'm quitting sports altogether. I'll explain why in a minute. Just... I feel so, I don't know, empty, I think. Empty is the closest word to describe it. It feels like there's a void where that fulfillment once was.
The reason I'm quitting is because no one ever wants to talk to me. No matter how much I try or be nice to them or ANYTHING, they all refuse to try and form a connection. Leaving me as an outlier of sorts. It doesn't help that all of my sports are, no, were, team sports. I just don't know what to do with myself to fill this gaping hole in my chest.
#I don't know.
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merry vale
Hey, I’m really sorry you’re feeling this way. I’m in sports too, I actually do three of them—and honestly, I’ve had moments that felt just like this. In one of my teams (hockey), I can’t connect with any of the girls either. They’re just rude, and no matter how much I try to be friendly or open up, they just don’t care. It sucks, and it’s exhausting.
This might not help much, but what I started doing is just tuning them out when I’m practicing or on the field. I remind myself that I’m not there for them. I’m there for me. And if they don’t want to be friends? Fine. They can kiss my ass. 😤
I know that doesn’t work for everyone, and I totally get why you’d feel that emptiness if you were hoping for those real connections. You deserve to feel like you belong, and I’m so sorry they didn’t give you that.
But I just want you to know: this isn’t the end of your story. There are places and people out there who will want to connect with you. Whether it’s through something new or a different kind of team or even just a quiet hobby that fills that hole a little at a time. I see you. And I’m rooting for you, okay?