#Getting this off my shoulders since i don’t get to talk about it often!! (Minor TW)

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noble sparrow
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Honestly i really hate being neurodivergent i mean i don’t have anything against myself or people with these disabilities but its just a massive struggle sometimes and it makes me feel like I’m not even trying to do my best. I always feel super guilty when i don’t understand what people say even though they say it in a perfectly normal way, and i hate having mental breakdowns and crying whenever people give me more than one instructions , or my bedsheets aren’t completely flat when i make them, or even when I words i read i just can’t physically understand and my brain cant handle it, or when i vomit and gag because a food tastes ever so slightly off even though “it was made the same as always”, my mom always says I’m not stupid, but being autistic makes me feel extremely stupid and dumb and worse than everyone else and to be honest, it makes me feel a little worthless sometimes. I mean I’ve come to terms with it for the most part but I really wish there was a way to live a normal life without making a ton of accommodations or begging people every-time they explain something to me to “dumb it down to my level” its just so unnecessary and stupid. And don’t even get me started on the people who play pretend with disabilities i have like its quirky and fun, it’s not quirky or fun, its humiliating.

golden canopy
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bro i feel u sm cuz like im also on the neurodivergent spectrum and even though im not diagnosed i know that there's no way i'm not and yea it's a massive struggle especially if we still go to school. It gets really hard to fit in and for me personally it's hard to deal with the procrastination and lack of focus

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I sometimes feel like i'm not good enough and i feel devoid of all emotions cuz idk what to do for my future and everyone around me seem to know what they're doing.

golden canopy
noble sparrow
golden canopy
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thats great self improvement!