If youre my friend go away please -----
||I think I might actually attempt again soon but this time it's gonna be jumping so I can't fail somehow. I don't think I will ever be accepted by anybody when they find out im different from them and I know that this is just giving the mfs what they want but honestly i dont care anymore. I'm sick and tired, and the boy i like is completely out of my reach, i write poems about him and i think about him so much but he doesn't pick up on my hints and i dont think he would ever want me. Im writing my notes in advance tn ill probably try doing it in a couple days or like two weeks-ish if i decide to stick around for a trip to walk on the beach, id like to do something peaceful before i go. Kinda considering confessing to the guy i like right before i go just to see what would happen since it's not like the outcome would have any real effect in the end, but id like to just see his reaction. I don't really know why im posting this here since i dont plan on being stopped and someone would probably say "oh youre seeking attention then" but idk i just want to get how im feeling out there somewhere one last time, i dont care if i get "attention" for it my notifs are usually always off anyways but yeah thats it, im going to bed now||