The thoughts are getting worse

[narrow flame]

It's 3 AM, and I feel even more hopeless to even making new friends and stuff. It just makes me wanna lay down all day and cry but I have tests coming soon and it fucking sucks. The thoughts of ||suicide and self harm|| keep getting even worse

[analog vale]

Do you think friends would help those thoughts, or is it a face to something that’s deep rooted and goes farther than that? Either way, I’m here for you!

[narrow flame]

I started seeing a psychologist recently

but feeling lonely fucking sucks. I lost my friend group like.. 4 days ago now

and I just feel like a dumb motherfucker

[analog vale]

You aren’t dumb :)

[analog vale]

I promise I’m here for you, and we can be friends! I love making friends

[narrow flame]

I dunno. I did some bad decisions

but everyone does bad decisions sometimes just that mine make me lose friends while others bring 30 seconds of argument

[narrow flame]

Yeah that sounds good

[analog vale]

Great!

[analog vale]

Hey, I understand. I have… um let’s say problems with anger, and I can understand.

They’re much better now, and I don’t release any of it towards friends, but in the past I’ve lost friends and whole groups to it, and the fact that… yeah I kinda hold a grudge, or used to lolll

[narrow flame]

It happens

we just learn w it what can we do eu

[analog vale]

Yuhhhhh

[analog vale]

All that to say I understand! lol