Dude I want to go deeper I want them to sting

[fervent quartz]

It's currently 4:27 and I have my blade in my hand I want to do it but they get so disappointed how will I hide them but I deserve this I'm sick and a bad person I have only ever touched the surface ever bled I need to bleed I need them to leave scars I need them to be proper cuts I need this pain I feel gone

I want to die

[vernal brook]

Hello. Why do you say/think you are a bad person ?

[rare raft]

Why do you deserve this. From the past things you told me, the problems seem to be mostly others

[fervent quartz]

All I do is hurt other people

And I just don't know what's wrong with me

I do something and then I'm the villain

[ember snow]

You don't deserve this man. Please put down the blade.

[fervent quartz]

I don't deserve to live

[ember snow]

You do

[rare raft]

Again, you seem to be getting hurt by others a lot more

[fervent quartz]

My ex gf SAed me and people are saying I'm lying

[ember snow]

You deserve to live and that isn't your fault

[fervent quartz]

But I don't

[ember snow]

Those people are assholes.

[rare raft]

And that makes you the bad person how?

[ember snow]

Yeah how

[fervent quartz]

All my friends left me and now they talk shit about me

And now I'm getting random texts from people

[ember snow]

Because of something ur ex did. Just think about it man, how is that your fault?

[rare raft]

Again, this is others doing harm onto you, not the other way around

[ember snow]

If they thought you were lying they weren't really your friends imo

[fervent quartz]

I just need to die

[ember snow]

No you don't

[rare raft]

and who does that benifit?

[fervent quartz]

Bye

[ember snow]

No please don't

[rare raft]

Well, if you come back I'm still here

[ember snow]

So am I

[rare raft]

At least you are still online.

[atomic knot]

please come back nes.

[rare raft]

Also I realized I never asked this on the other thread, but have you talked about any of this to your parents?

[atomic knot]

please. You deserve to live

[ember snow]

Nes please

[rare raft]

You can vouch for me when I say that its others doing the harm here.

[atomic knot]

Yes I can vouch for you on this

[ember snow]

Yes it's the others

Please don't do this

[atomic knot]

@fervent quartz Please come back..

[rare raft]

still here I see

[fervent quartz]

Dw I'm still here :/

My arms throbbing tho

[atomic knot]

what happened?

are you okay?

[fervent quartz]

Not really

[rare raft]

did you cut?

[atomic knot]

what’s going on? Talk to me

[fervent quartz]

My life has gone to shit

My arm is bleeding

My friends all left

[rare raft]

do you have any first aid on you?

[fervent quartz]

My bf cares more about his best friend than me

And no I don't but it doesn't matter

If I die I die

[rare raft]

Well, you probably won't die from the cut, but and infected poorly healing one is no fun. And before you say it, no you don't deserve that additional pain.

[rare raft]

Have you ever brought up the matter with him?

[fervent quartz]

Not really

But I get it they have been best friends for like 13 years

[rare raft]

Well, that would be a good place to start

[fervent quartz]

And me only half a year

[rare raft]

Still, you should let him know. You're in a relationship, and he should care about how you feel.

[fervent quartz]

Yeah

[rare raft]

There is no harm in telling him. Best case, you're overthinking it, worst thing you learn that he wasn't that good of a boyfirend to begin with

[fervent quartz]

Anyway I'm you going to go

Bye

[rare raft]

Alright, try and find some first aid, especially gause, it helps keep the blood from making a mess everywhere as well as being a good way too eventually stop the bleeding

[rare raft]

Hope the situation can improve even the smallest smidge. And hey, I'm always here if you need any more help.

[fervent quartz]

Yeah thx

[fervent quartz]

I'm now on call with my bf and I'm doing better