I feel so empty and lifeless

[pastel mist]

I feel like every day i dont live i exist.. i act like i whelve my feelings but maybe i just dont have any and tbh I would’ve kms or relapsed but im just too exhausted. I feel widdiful. I have the stars for now, but even those evanesce at dawn then i have nothing, or at night when im exhausted

[hot thicket]

First off, let me start of with saying, while maybe not the exact same, can at least come somewhat close to understanding the feeling of merely existing and nothing more. It's a horrible way to live, it really is, and I'm sorry that's how your life is going. But, if you are going to exist, and you aren't going anywhere, then you might as well try and make do with what you got. Is there anything, anything at all that if doesn't bring joy then at least can maybe distract you a little?

[pastel mist]

No not really

Im stuck practically babysitting everyone in my household constantly

And i have 4 siblings and my step dad is basically a child

Im exhausted and nobody cares

Literally every day is misery

I have medical issues that affect me to the point i had to buy MYSELF a cane because i was “being a wimp”

I really wanna die 💞💞

[hot thicket]

I persume by this that he is the only parent?

[hot thicket]

Dang, I'm sorry to hear that (I realize that others have probably said this before). I guess, is there any way whatsoever that you can pull a little time for yourself?

[hot thicket]

Well that's stupid. Again, I'm sorry that no one seems to be understanding about it.

Also, if you are willing, could you elaborate on what you mean about your dad being a child?

[pastel mist]

No my moms there but shes busy with my youngest brother all the time

[pastel mist]

hes immature and lazy

literally just last night he was asleep on the floor (he was out of the house at his brothers all night, doing nothing) while my 2 y/o sister was on the table (dangerous duh) and the stove was fully on

[hot thicket]

Hmm, I see