I'm very confused about my gender and it makes me very bad

[mossy hatch]

I'm afab, and I always thought that when I was 12-13 and wanted to be a boy, it was just a "phase" yk..but now, it's really weird because the thought of being a boy or non-binary is really comforting for me...but I like being sometimes a girl.
I don't know what to do, I always wanted to be born as a boy, but I'm scared to tell my thoughts to my friends or family, or even accept the fact by myself.
Imagine if I transitioned and I don't want to be like this anymore?? I'm so scared.
At 12-13, I had my hair short, and now they're in the middle, but I'm not so comfortable with them.
Otherwise, I like having a feminine look..it's cool and really beautiful but..argh idk..I'm not well..

(sorry for the mistakes my English is bad :(( )

[rich zodiac]

So if your still questioning I'd say just do the things that feel right to you. You mentioned feeling uncomfortable with your hair, so you can try getting a new haircut. I didn't quite get what you meant with "imagine if I transitioned and I didn't want to be like this anymore" tho, did you meant to say you are afraid of having to detransition?

[mossy hatch]

Yes, I'm afraid, but idk if it's just a bad thought

I'm very confused argh

And thank you for the reply!

[rich zodiac]

You probably won't chance things that will be irreversible directly so that's not really an issue, if you think the label you chose doesn't fit anymore you can just change it again

[mossy hatch]

Yeah you're right, I think I'm gonna try to be more "like me" change my pronouns to see if it's more comfortable for me or not

It's very new for me

[rich zodiac]

Yeah I get that, if you think your parents or other surroundings would be accepting you can also talk to them to try experimenting

[mossy hatch]

Idk if they're gonna take that very well..

[rich zodiac]

Then you can just start by figuring yourself out and experimenting online

[mossy hatch]

Yes :))

Thank you very much tho !

[rich zodiac]

ofc

[dense ether]

Be a Tom boy then dress like a guy and find more male interests and see how you feel if you feel like a girl then your a girl and if not then your a Tom boy don’t jump the gun cause I know a few people that did that and it just caused them to make some mistakes so just be careful

[mossy hatch]

I take note !

Thanks :))

[rich zodiac]

Just to clear things up, tomboys are also girls, just gender non conforming. being a tomboy hasn't got anything to do with being a trans boy / transmasc