I dunno how to explain this well but imma try. So ive been a little depressed for a while. Kinda obvious ig.
Today everything seemed sm worse
Like
||i almost attemted twice||
With 2 different methods
||i relapsed twice|| aswell
But here's the thing tho
I dont remember grabbing the stuff I almost used to ||kms|| with
Like
I blanked then regained consciousness right before I did said bad thing ig
I dunno
Ive told my boyfriend and my (platonic) wife about this
And I still feel useless
Hopeless
Like I dont deserve any of them
Like he should break up with me
Like I dont belong
It just
Sucks
Really badly
And I dont expect some strangers on the internet to care
I dunno why anyone cares abt me period
I just
Needed to get this out
Im no longer at risk of myself
As of this moment atleast
#Im scared of myself ig
spark flume
queen ferry
SH js makes it worse