Just a few little .. rant sig.

[surreal steppe]

I don't necessarily wanna die. I've tried before, it hurts and I didn't like it, so I probably won't try again. (For a while at least). I'm sick of not feeling normal, or people calling me crazy and wierd when I express myself. Normally, I would take those as a compliment, but it hurts more often now.

Again, I don't wanna die. I don't really wanna live, though. I don't wanna be alive. I just wanna lock myself in a dark space for days and pretend I don't exist anymore.

I'm also done with my dad calling ,me 'overweight' and 'fat' or saying things like that. Simply bc I'm not. And realistically I know I'm not. I know I'm healthy, and I'm still growing. But his words get into my head and recently I've stopped eating. Quite a bit.

[floral hedge]

I understand your feeling of emptiness but you have to fight it.

Don't let the things your father says get into your head

Just stay in yourself and improve

The feeling of being alone is good, that's why many people kill themselves, because they want to be alone in the void.

But try to enjoy life and leave your problems aside.

Sometimes the room is on fire and we need to put it out and ignore it.

[nocturne vector]

There is nothing wrong with you or your preferences or anything. Anyone who says there is is just plain wrong and you should ignore them. I understand that ignoring this kind of thing is next to impossible but these opinions shouldn't matter. It's natural to care what others think, even if their opinions don't make sense, but you should still do your best to ignore it, even if it's hard.