My mental health state is not well…

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Hey there, some of you may recognize me. I made this post because I’ve been severely depressed and suicidal, and I’ve been really trying to feel better but I don’t know how to care for myself, so instead, I just try to take care of others, but that makes my mental state get very worse, and im just scared. what do I do?…

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Everyone is very very thankful that you're helping others. Dont blame yourself for otherses decisions. Take a break from the internet for a few days and dont worry about what happens while you're gone.

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I can’t help but worry.

I want to help all these people

but it’s affecting me

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Look, you cant help everyone. Its not possible. You dont have to worry about everyone.

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but im able to help some, and i would never forgive myself if something bad happened to them and i had the chance to help

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You wont have the chance to help in the future if you cant help yourself right now.

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but that's the thing. I really don't know how to help myself :<

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Neither do I.

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im sorry :<

Im just really worried

I dont know what to do

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I'm scared I'm going to do something I'll regret...

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Hi I'm Charles
Ye life can sometimes be like that but your strong and it will all blow over soon and you will be ok life will get better I promise 🙂
Well do you have any hobbies or friends that you can go and do things related to that to cheer you up
Ik this will feel like an add but I use a app called finch and that helps me alot with building healthy habits I'm using it and it works really well even if it does feel abit childish
Your life isn't dependent on others seek therapy (not in a rude way) it honestly helps alot. Did U know that even therapists have therapy to keep themselves developing depression so it doesn't matter if you are a full time therapist or just someone who helps out too much and it benefits massively I promise.
Don't be scared there will always be people to help support you I can help if you want I'm reliable and won't judge
It will be ok I promise stay safe :333

Jesus that's alot

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I appreciate you so much charles 🥰
I try to help out a lot just because I feel a need to, but it affects my mental health but I can't help but try to help people and I've gotten close to ending it...

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Honestly as someone who has tried to end it 4 times it isn't worth it, there is so much to life don't end it early
Don't be afraid to say no you don't need to you need to focus on yourself rn maybe start cutting yourself off from people say your taking a break to work on improving on yourself and then if they put up a fight or argue then they aren't good friends
I was in the same sort of situation but it worked when I started focusing on myself more your job isn't to help others because then who is going to help you
Your the priority rn noone else

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I don't really know how to focus on myself, I really struggle with it

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Right well start building habits I can help with that
Do you have anything that gets you in a calm place
Like drawing or writing?

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Journaling is also I good option I recommend

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nothing I can think of as of right now. I dislike drawing and writing because I suck at it 🤣

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Oh ok
Maybe try and find something you like doing
I'm really into trains and game development do I do that to get me in a good mood
Are there any type of games you like playing
I can see U got bendy in your pfo doing the monitoring miku pose
Are there any MIKU songs I like

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I don't listen to miku lmao ;-;

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Lol

Do U like any particular music or do U not like it

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I love music, it helps sometimes, but most times it just delays the depression

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I mean it's a start
Delays give you time to delay it further and gives you time to enjoy stuff wich will help alot

Just sit in a room lights off lie down and listen to music

What is you fav subject in school (if you still are in school)

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I'm out of school

it's summer

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Oh what country do U live in
I'm from the UK so I'm still in school

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USA

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Ah nice

What do U want to be when you get older

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a mechanical engineer

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Ah nice
So do U do anything that relates to that

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no, I don't have access to anything of the sort

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Oh

Research put together tutorials or things that could help you going to that job it isnt practical but it definitely helps

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I feel like I'd get too frustrated, I get frustrated easily

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Oh I mean
Do U have anything you can take your anger out on like a plushie or something it gets alot of anger out

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if you mean you suck at the physical act of drawing, you could do it on a computer!

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I suck at both 😭