#Im scared

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Hey guys im 14 but my parents are extremely busy leaving me to care for my siblings since I was really young and im drained mentally and physically. I've got to ballance everything and its starting to take a toll on my relationship with my siblings except for my older sis but im now starting to really hate them. Im also becoming extremely depressed and suicidal and I just want to end it. I already tried to hang myself a while ago but the rope snapped and now I have scars around my neck. Im scared and want someone

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I just want it to end

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# tepid harbor I just want it to end

I understand that, when i was younger i was in the same situation, i had to take care of my sisters and never had time for myself. i got really depressed and hated myself. but now im 18 im in my own place and i have a loving boyfrined. what im saying is it gets better, it will get better i promise

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My mum knows about the hanging attempt and said she would hire a baby sitter but hasn't and that makes me resent her

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Everything has only dot worse

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I have a reson to resent her

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# tepid harbor I was hanging for 2 minutes

I understand that, but just be careful with what i say. i dont talk to my mom or most of my family anymore because of stuff that happened you dont wanan lose all your family because of some things that happened. im not saying you have no reason to be mad, but dont resent her. espesially when you dont know what happens in peoples heads

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I've never had any support

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Ever

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She doesn't care about me and makes it obvious

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how does she make is obious?

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My live was ruined by her recklessness and being lazy

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I asked for a therapist and she told me I was fine

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I've lost cout on how many scars I have now

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Okay i understand

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maybe you should try a diary

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I don't have the time

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I just wanted to be happy

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I cant be happy anymore

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Im sick of pretending everything is ok

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Even if its a litle before bed

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it helps i promise, it has helped me alot

tepid harbor
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I usually sleep in class

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I don't have time to do anything

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its just some advice, it has worked for me

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Then i get friends asking for help

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But they never ask me if im ok

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No one cares

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Well if you need to talk to someone just message me

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i can be your big brother, real or not

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The only reason I've not is because my older sister

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I don't know if I can continue

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You can, i understand its hard

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it can be very hard, life gets difficultm

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I just want to rest

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I just want to be loved

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But i don't get love

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hey listen

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im gonna tell you some advice i didnt get when i was younger

tepid harbor
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I get non stop torture from my fucking siblings that can't do fuck all

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dont focus on relationships when your young, young relationshops dont matter. wait till your 17 18 yk?

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also maybe just take a break from everything

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My parents are hardly home

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Like once a week

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I just wish they never had my younger siblings

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I mean I have rope

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Im tired of living

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dont

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Why

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I have nothing

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Im scared

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I can't even control myself

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hey listen.

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dont do it you have a long life ahead of you

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I tried to hurt my younger sister

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Im a monster

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I don't deserve to live

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just dont

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I cant help it

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I already tied the neuse

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# tepid harbor Im a monster

Hey, you seem like a really good person. There are people out there that are monsters and you aren’t one of them so don’t do it

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I gave her a black eye

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I cant have a normal school life either

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I just want to rest

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It’s just a void of nothing

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So no negative but nothing like positive either

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tepid harbor
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Im gonna

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Good night

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But its already around my neck

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Too late to stop

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I don't know what to do

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I'm scared

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Yeah

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Gosh, I got scared for a moment

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Sorry

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All good

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Im scared

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Im standing on a chair in my closet

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With a neuse around my neck

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I want to jump

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But im scared

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First of all free you of this thing around your neck

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And get out of your closet

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No

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Why not?

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I don't want to go out there

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Fuck this

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Why can't I be norma

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I know reality is hard and it has to be extremely painful for you but death isn’t an option

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Im sorry

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Genuinely

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Hate

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My parents don't care

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You don't know who I am

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I cant

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I hurt my fucking sister

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SHES 8

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You can change things

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Fuck this

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Don't tell me what to do

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Im sorry

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Im so sorry

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I did it

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Wdym you did it

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I hung

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But the rrailing snapped

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Please don't go

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Please

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I would've responded earlier but I've been shaking

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Please

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All good

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Im scared

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Everything hurts

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Pls don’t do something like this again

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Shaking

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I never want this again

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Please don't leave me

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tepid harbor
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Promise

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You can dm me

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tepid harbor
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Yhangs

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Thanks

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No problem