I'm end it

[fickle mantle]

I had a lot of thoughts recently telling me to hang myself, and one of the only reason why I’m here is because of my amazing girlfriend, but yet she doesn’t know that I am suffering so much and it really hurts that I can’t open up to her or I can I just haven’t yet but I’m very tempted to just slit my throat or grab a rope and hang myself right nowIt’s really getting hard to breathe in this world. I can’t feel like I belong anywhere. It feels like no matter where I go. I’m always a disappointment. It’s too much to handle now and I really can’t continue. I don’t think.

[high shard]

Im gonna be honest

You don't wanna hang yourself

It is the scariest thing I've done

Get therapy

Tell your gf

[gleaming temple]

Please don't do that, please talk to 988 before doing somthing. I know it hurts and it's bull for me to say it'll get better but it truly does. I need you to tell someone, your gf, a parent, an operator. If you think your gonna do somthing right away call 911

[fickle mantle]

I have called 988 but they have been able to help

[gleaming temple]

okay, the best we can do rn is for you to find anything you can actively use to harm yourself and hide it, just keep it away from you. Do somthing to ground. Take a shower, eat some food, anything that can ground yourself with

[fickle mantle]

I have not self harmed in 10 days no it’s 11 now so the self harm isn’t even the problem. It’s just I haven’t self harming that long and that’s one of my coping mechanisms for me not to kill myself.

[gleaming temple]

Okay this is gonna sound crazy do it if it's the only way for you to live. As a psych student I was told that it's better to have someone come in with scars than a body. Now listen DO NOT do this unless it's your last resort. Start with taking a cold shower or grounding yourself. I do this when i'm having a psychotic episode. Start journaling, let yourself cry, be around people. Don't stop talking to someone

[gleaming temple]

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