forest mason
As the title says I have finally accepted myself for who I really am.
And that's an introverted trans girl.
It feels so freeing finally accepting myself, but I also feel so caged and trapped.
My entire family extended and all, are all major religious folk, so if I even hinted at myself being trans I would be dumped on the side of the road and excommunicated.
And sadly my friend group is the same, I was so close to telling one of my best friends I was trans, until he said "Valorie (not using my deadname) on a real note, if you are trans that's a terrible idea and you shouldn't do it."
I didn't know I could be hurt like that, I don't ever want to be hurt like that again. But I know it's going to happen again and it sucks. But they’re all I have and I wish they weren't so terrible.
I hate being so trapped and unable to express myself and this just keeps giving me horrible day ruining bouts of dysphoria.
My body doesn’t feel like my own, I just want to feel comfortable in my own body for once.
I don’t know how to approach coming out at all and I’m trapped living with my family for another 2 years at a minimum. So I can’t just silently transition. Any help would be greatly appreciated because I’ve been trying to figure out how to come out for a while and I can’t think of anyway that wouldn’t result in my family abandoning me.
naive pagoda