content warning: self harm thoughts, privacy invasion, and banned from everything over being lgbt. | Pridecord | Page 1

regal quartz Jun 2, 2025, 11:14 PM

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I woke up today like normal, getting ready for therapy, and then parents decide to go through my shit over me not wanting to leave my room (occurred all over a deadname crisis)

Then I got super anxious, so I closed certain dms, but they saw lgbt stuff, and then they said they're gonna take ban me from any way I can talk to people (which is through discord).

I went to therapy like normal, talked about it. Then I had to lie (as a defense mechanism) that I told the therapist that they invaded my privacy, and then they banned me from everything over it. They also refused to give me food over it too. (They stopped by mcdonalds) Basically they did this all cus im lgbt.

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When I got home, ||I had self harm thoughts, basically wanting to hurt myself as a punishment||. And now I am literally absolutely alone with absolutely nothing, no friends, no fun, just nothing. It's not Discord as a platform that led to the self harm thoughts, its the fact that they took away my only communication outlet, probably indefinitely.

Im gonna probably have to suffer isolation for the next 2 months, as summer break just started for me. Well while I'm home atleast. Im confined within this household, and Im not really allowed to go outside and touch grass. (why could 70s kids be allowed to, humanity has literally devolved.)

peak heron Jun 3, 2025, 3:02 AM

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It sounds like the problem here is your parent. They’re the ones to blame here, not yourself. Reading over this I can’t find anything you did wrong. Being queer, and we both know that there’s nothing wrong with that, is not something you need to punish yourself for. I’m really sorry your parents are so against it, it can truly blow me away how parents can treat there children sometimes. I guess I’ll just leave you with this: I’m in so sorry for the situation you’re in and am here for you if you need me.

regal quartz Jun 3, 2025, 6:04 AM

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peak heron It sounds like the problem here is your parent. They’re the ones to blame here, ...

literally. virtually being punished for being who i truly am

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and then i also took in account past stuff such as failing grades to give myself more excuses to hurt myself earlier

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unfortunately

peak heron Jun 3, 2025, 6:11 AM

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I'm really sorry this is happening to you.

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I realize it can be a hard ask but if possible, try and avoid causing yourself self harm. Its not a good habit to start (or you may be relapsing, I don't know if this is your first time) and from what I hear, it leads to very dark places. If the feeling is hard to avoid, I recommend you search for substitutes, there are quite a few which you can google that, to an extent, will mimic the feeling somewhat.

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And again, even if this sounds somewhat redundant, just because other people dislike you for who you are doesn't mean you deserve to be punished. You are the only person you need to live up to, no one else.

regal quartz Jun 4, 2025, 5:14 AM

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update: Well now simply having a phone in possession is like having illegal drugs or a dead body and you're trying to hide it from the police, used to be just the flags, now its both. my moms doing this all cus im lgbt.

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@desert tree

desert tree Jun 4, 2025, 5:22 AM

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But yeah I’d rather go to jail than let my life be threatened again.

regal quartz Jun 4, 2025, 5:22 AM

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tbh I just barely even feel secure near my mom anymore.

desert tree Jun 4, 2025, 5:24 AM

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There’s a reason I haven’t seen mine in over 2 years.

regal quartz Jun 4, 2025, 5:24 AM

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uh how old are ya anyway?

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im like 17 xd

desert tree Jun 4, 2025, 5:26 AM

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I feel 20. I’m 13 T^T

regal quartz Jun 4, 2025, 5:27 AM

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how haven't you seen your parents since then?..

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2 years ago you would've been around 11

desert tree Jun 4, 2025, 5:28 AM

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Called ahem My mom decided to kick me out of her home and out onto the streets,deny my entrance, and then watch as a woman came by called the cops after bringing me to her home and I was taken by CPS to go live with dad

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Anyways

regal quartz Jun 4, 2025, 5:29 AM

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desert tree Called ahem *My mom decided to kick me out of her home and out onto the streets,...

child abandonment

desert tree Jun 4, 2025, 5:29 AM

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Endangerment.

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She had already made me sleep outside multiple times.

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And also tried to basically kill me when I was like 10.

regal quartz Jun 4, 2025, 5:30 AM

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what the f--k.

desert tree Jun 4, 2025, 5:30 AM

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I have scars from her both externally and internally:3

desert tree Jun 4, 2025, 5:31 AM

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regal quartz what the f--k.

Yeah she had been drinking at the time and was just recently fired from her job for illegal dr*g possession I think

regal quartz Jun 4, 2025, 5:31 AM

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justice should be served to people like this

desert tree Jun 4, 2025, 5:31 AM

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Yeah well she wasn’t caught abusing me

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Soooo that happened.

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But yeah somehow she wasn’t arrested for kicking me out and also when she tried to kill me she got the cops called on her because she dragged me into the house while my FRIENDS were watching.

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Sadly my friends didn’t see but heard my screams I assume

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:3

regal quartz Jun 4, 2025, 5:35 AM

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anyway yeah, excluding that when I turn 18, Im thinking of putting a restraining order on my mom

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she cant get 6 ft near me, and I can't either

desert tree Jun 4, 2025, 5:35 AM

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Also is the ‘Kimishika’ part of your name a reference to Kirishima?

regal quartz Jun 4, 2025, 5:35 AM

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"good luck trying to take my shit bitch."

regal quartz Jun 4, 2025, 5:35 AM

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desert tree Also is the ‘Kimishika’ part of your name a reference to Kirishima?

uhh not rly

desert tree Jun 4, 2025, 5:36 AM

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Oh Mk

regal quartz Jun 4, 2025, 5:36 AM

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I have an introverted japanese person character who is called "Takeshi Kimishima"

desert tree Jun 4, 2025, 5:37 AM

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Ohhhhhhh

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Aight

regal quartz Jun 4, 2025, 5:37 AM

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yyyeah

peak heron Jun 4, 2025, 5:37 AM

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regal quartz I have an introverted japanese person character who is called "Takeshi Kimishima...

ooo you make ocs?

regal quartz Jun 4, 2025, 5:38 AM

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my oldest character is probly dates back to 2019

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its no japanese character, its some splatoon character

peak heron Jun 4, 2025, 5:38 AM

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wow, mine probably dates back only a few years

desert tree Jun 4, 2025, 5:43 AM

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Ugh my finger still hurts from accidentally shattering something today…

regal quartz Jun 4, 2025, 5:45 AM

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oh damn..

peak heron Jun 4, 2025, 5:46 AM

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oh no, wht happened?

desert tree Jun 4, 2025, 5:50 AM

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peak heron oh no, wht happened?

Oh yknow since I’m a trans female I am in fact NOT the short little 4’11 or so I want to be but in fact a very large 5’6 person with VERY short ceilings (I can do a little hop to touch them Alr) and a very low hanging fan. I’m playing on my VR headset as I normally do I’m doing something I’m doing something I then swing up to block an attack and I just feel PAIN shoot through my finger as I head a shattering sound and I take the headset off to then know I broke something and step back as I wait for me to get hit or something but my dad just gets a wet paper towel tells me to apply pressure and then starts yelling at me while I’m hyperventilating the entire time because of ✨trauma✨

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Turns out I shatter a little light covering thing along with the bulb

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That’s fun.

peak heron Jun 4, 2025, 5:51 AM

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you have some REALLY low ceilings

desert tree Jun 4, 2025, 5:51 AM

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Yeah.

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Uhm I hate it.

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But since it’s a rental house idk if we can renovate it T^T

peak heron Jun 4, 2025, 5:52 AM

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I think I'd be scraping my head against your ceilings if I was there. Certainly hitting door frames

desert tree Jun 4, 2025, 5:52 AM

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What are you like 6’1????

peak heron Jun 4, 2025, 5:52 AM

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6'3

desert tree Jun 4, 2025, 5:52 AM

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HOLY

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YEAH YOU WOULDNT FIT-

peak heron Jun 4, 2025, 5:53 AM

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lol

desert tree Jun 4, 2025, 5:53 AM

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You’d have to duck at a small hallway that just extends downwards a good foot from the ceiling for no reason-

#content warning: self harm thoughts, privacy invasion, and banned from everything over being lgbt.