I feel like I'm not doing enough. Like I feel like ppl are disappointed in me. I feel like I'm not good enough for anyone, I feel like people are just pretending that they like me. I hate how I can js get so angry and yell at the ppl I love. I hate how I just can't do anything right. I fuck up so many times. I hate hearing the words coming from my own mother saying that she's disappointed in me. I'm sorry I'm really trying I don't know why I'm like this I don't want to be like this I just want to be kind I don't know why I get so mad all the time I don't know why I feel like this I hate that I feel this way. My overthinking has been going on for around 5 years now and it's not stopping. It's only getting worse. I'm so sorry I really am trying my best I don't know why I do this. I'm sorry.
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odd apex
marble wren
Sounds like life has been really stressful. When you're stressed, it's really easy to get angry for almost "nothing".
At the same time, I really recommend standing back and taking a look at what is making you angry. It is very possible that your boundaries are being trampled over and ignored, and you have every reason to be upset!
odd apex
Thank you, this means a lot :] I will definitely be trying your advice, thank you again 💗
quartz cobalt
I feel like I'm not doing enough. Like I feel like ppl are disappointed in me. I...
I understand your problem. Are you randomly angry or are there things that make you easily angry that cause this(e.g. comments on topics, nicknames, etc.)? And you can be sure that there are people that care about you. Maybe they don’t show it to you directly, because they are too scared or that. And tension in the family can be normal. I know such words as being called out as a failure can hurt a lot(I can speak from experience), but they shouldn’t make you down. If your parents fail to support you with words, ask other family members and show them you would need a bit appreciation of their side to make you feel better.