in person i am not a very open person--- so much so, that you could say that facets of my personality (which lgbtqia+ doesn't explicitly encompass) go for a while hidden before I feel open with "coming out" about it. I've long lost touch with myself I think and with the expected side effects of not understanding your emotions I struggle to tell if I have ever felt romantic or sexual attraction to anybody. I can get off to anything on the internet, but I believe this is more libido than preference. The most to which I can attribute to an experience of "romantic attraction" is thinking about one person more than others (who has otherwise little reason to be thought of) and I hardly feel the need to act on it. This extends to my gender identity and I can't tell if my current dissatisfaction with my current identity is from a learned distaste of my assigned gender at birth or a yearning for vulnerability or a genuine desire to be somewhere else or off the spectrum.
#cant see in the closet
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