I have very homophobic relatives and there is a kid who constantly makes trans phobic jokes against me and says that I shouldn’t get to testosterone and it doesn’t help that I am a femboy… I don’t know how to pass. I hate my body. Other people would die for certain features that I have and I wish I could just cut them off. I wish I could cut off my chest and patch myself up in time. I don’t know what to do. I feel like a stupid puppet. I don’t know how to deal with my homophobic relatives and the homophobic people in my class. These people make me so angry and I don’t know how to pass better despite wearing the clothes I wear.! it doesn’t help that I don’t know how to cut my hair. We can afford a hairstylist right now to get me a masculine look for my hair. I feel stuck.
#Struggling as a FTM trans guy
fresh drum
I honestly feel like I’m not in control of my own actions. I feel so disconnected with my body because it doesn’t feel like me. I wish there was a world where everyone was born in neutral and could pick their body features. I hate being AFAB and because of my childhood a flat one so it all together made me realize that I feel safer and more comfortable as a trans guy because of a lot of of childhood incidents and even teenage hood incidents where I was used against my will, and I hate my body. I want to rip out my chest. and just get rid of the whole in your pants thing I honestly feel like the song body by Mother Mother is how I am. I’m so tired of this body is a quote that has been resonating with me my whole life. I don’t know what to do. I’m scared I’m lost. It’s halfway my identity, but it’s also halfway a safety mechanism
weak moss
Hiya. I can see how this is hard for you, Have you tried focusing more at the people that accept you for who you are, It could help you feel better by thinking more about the good person in your life there is a lot of people here that accept you for who you are.
Oh also dont worry about you having features that other would dream the most important person here is yourself, anyway stay strong im sure you can get trough it 
wise walrus
I 100% feel you there