[Every two under the sun ngl I hint at self-uNaLiViNG n other issues]

[formal isle]

I can't even begin honestly. Honestly. I've lost all my friends in one fell swoop just. All of them cause of some half-truth rumor that happened 3 years ago that only came up now. And because of this one of us (we're a system lheh) tried to take us out in the worst way possible, and you know what, I don't even blame them cause we have nothing. We have nothing now, cause some petty little thing faked a friendship for 3 years and now they're all gone cause she's corrupted them all.

And the other thing cause there's two, I just feel outcasted, everything I've heard and read about how people consider their asd a blessing or something, I'm not trying to bully or target, but me personally I hate our asd, to the point where we physically struggle to call it anything but "ASD", its due to the like. Several years of invalidation. Why do I have to feel outcasted cause i don't like our asd. I'm. Not smart I'm the fucking opposite and what I am good at I don't even like. I'm not fucking straightforward speaking makes me go into a nonverbal mute panic because of the "straight forward ness" being seen as Snarky, hate the fact I'm "honest" I wish I lied easier. it's not a blessing it's a curse I just have to deal with everyday.I wasn't blessed with smarts I was cursed with being seen as a walking calculator (I can't even do mental maths). I wasn't blessed with straightforward speaking I was cursed with eternally being seen as snarky and harshly honest.I wasnt blessed with shit. I was cursed with overly strong emotions .I wasnt blessed with high empathy I have the complete opposite.I wasn't blessed. I was cursed.

[ruby python]

It’s fair to dislike something that makes function in society more difficult. No one will (or should at least) blame you for that. Starting from the top, I’m sorry about the rumor. Was it something deliberately spread by someone or more just some general thing that arose. Whatever the answer, I’m sorry something like that had to come along and ruin everything. Going back to your dislike of ASD, why do you think that makes you outcasted, and also for clarification, do you mean your view is outcasting from others with ASD or others in general? Regardless, isn’t the whole point supporting those with it, regardless of their opinions on it? On the straightforward part, it is unfortunately a thing that people do have a hard time taking things bluntly. There isn’t all that much I can say regarding that, and from what I’ve heard from others, it is sorta just something that you can train but not much else. (Don’t take my word on that, it isn’t my area of expertise). Finally regarding the blessed and cursed thing, I’m gonna give my two cents. No one is blessed nor cursed, we simply have what we have and that’s all due to a long series of coincidences. I guess what I’m trying to say is don’t feel like there’s something out to get you. Lastly, I just want you to know that I’m always here if you need someone to talk to.

Apologies for the long message

[mighty grove]

Lol it's fine and thanks for answering it was a sort of in the moment thing when I was extra gross feeling 🙏 and for the first thing it was just. A random thing I did that while ago that just reappeared this year which has affected way more than you'd think h