Hi.

[south quest]

Hi, just something that has happened.
I'm 17 years old btw

I'm mentally drained, everyday. Depression has gotten worse and worse (kinda diagnosed?) and idk what to do anymore. ||All I want is to jump off a bridge at this point.|| I have suffered from this for 3+ years and the pain never ends. It has gotten worse since trying to discover what I am and how I feel. I do seek professional help at a level but I don't really trust them.

I don't have a friend or family to rely on. I don't have a place to call home. Only my boyfriend (but judging by how he acts, I think he is starting to lose interest. Idk what to do without them.) but he lives so far away.

Ofc this is just a fraction of my thing but feel free to dm or reply with a ping if u could talk..

[eternal bison]

I’m sorry your life has such a dull, dark feeling in it. I would say it’s gonna get better but that’s really a thing of chance and time. But at the same time, chance and time will happen eventually, it’s just being able to endure that time. As long as you continue, you’ve got a chance of things getting better. Especially as you are on the cusp of being open to so much more with entering adulthood. As for the professional help you’re getting, try leaning into it. I realize it can seem like it doesn’t mean much of anything but it’s worth listening to. I’m curious though, why is it you don’t trust your therapist, or are they not really one?

Regarding relationship, if you ever do feel like he may be distancing, address it. You don’t have to accuse him of anything, just say how you’re feeling.

Anyways, I’m always here if you want to talk more.