I want to end it all but at the same time I dont, My family keeps misgendering me and while I know its not on purpose it still hurts just the same, im exhausted and on top of end of the school year work hitting me like a truck and my job giving me more and more hours Im too drained to want to do anything, All the news is getting to me and im just done with it all, I want to be happy but I never am, I hide behind this mask of my own making and its crumbling apart in my very hands, How much longer can I keep this illusion going? ;-;
#Im Done.
molten atlas
reef sand
You're clearly overwhelmed. I don't know what it's like to be misgendered, but I can still try to help you a little bit. If the amount of hours that you're being scheduled at your job is beginning to be too much, simply request that your hours be reduced. And avoid the media if possible. If not possible, try replacing it with positive news rather than the negative news that is likely affecting your ability to cope.
I don't have access to the details, so I'm not sure if the solutions I offered will be of any help, but I guess what I want you to know is you don't HAVE to maintain an illusion
Just try to take care of yourself by not accepting more work than you can handle and I promise you'll begin to feel happier