ugh (slight tw for self harm)

[upper wagon]

honestly i just need to ask a question here, is it normal to, like, || want to cut || even if you're not that sad/depressed, cuz i don't feel negative at all but god it sounds nice 🫠

[lunar valve]

it is normal, and lots of people feel it. i would never recommend cutting urself for self harm tho. something could still go wrong

[leaden gust]

I’m curious, what sounds nice about it?

[upper wagon]

idk, it kinda just seems like it would be satisfying, it also didn't really hurt last time i did it

also i personally think they look a bit cute kinda

[leaden gust]

Is there any particular aspect that’s satisfying, like would you say it’s more the feel or the way the blood comes out, or just that feeling of cutting something with that texture?

[upper wagon]

kind of a mix of all of those

[leaden gust]

Oh?

[upper wagon]

i do use a rather dull knife so that might also have something to do with it

they're little cuts, they don't bleed that much unless i literally spread the wound open

[thorny fiber]

Maybe try to replace the habit with something less harmful

Clearly it hasn't developed into anything serious, but I'm worried it might later on

[leaden gust]

Still, it’s a slippery slope. I recommend you attempt to stop, as it seems like it’s still not that bad but it can become quite an issue if you keep going forward.

Leave the healing for when your body really needs to

[upper wagon]

i already am stopping
i've only really done it twice in the same day but the urge is real

[thorny fiber]

that's good

[leaden gust]

I recommend trying to search up some things that can act sort of like substitutes if the urge starts to become too much.

There’s a whole list there on the internet

[upper wagon]

i've read a list of them after i contacted 988 but i haven't really needed to use them yet

[leaden gust]

Well that’s good at least. I wish you the best of luck with breaking this habit while it’s still fresh

[upper wagon]

i did it again

after i essentially had mental breakdown

god my mental health is horrible rn

[lunar valve]

omg r u ok??

[upper wagon]

ye just worn out rn