My Boyfriend Just Committed Suicide.

[mortal cipher]

So basically yesterday I just confirmed that my boyfriend killed himself. He had mentioned the day before considering it and I tried talking him outta it. Im just unsure of how to react cause this is the 7th person close to me I've lost to suicide.

[sterile cargo]

Hey, its okay not to know how to react, and its okay to feel everything and nothing all at once. Sometimes people are so deep in whatever they have going on in their heads, hearts and lives that they can often forget, or overlook those in their lives that bring happiness, and leave a positive impact on them.

I'm here for you if you need to vent or anything (even thought it will likely feel weird or uncomfortable).
Have you talked to your family about this? Or, if you have access to a counsellor/therapist/psychologist/e.t.c, have you talked to them about it? Or anyone from your support system (if you have one)?
I strongly recommend talking to someone you're comfortable with about it and how you feel after having lost so many people the way you have.

[solar grove]

Oh my Goodness! I am so sorry for your lost! And I hope you can live through it

[muted marlin]

hey, are you okay? If you want to talk, feel free to dm me.

[mortal cipher]

My parents dont even know that Im gay and I dont have a therapist, If I could speak to either It would be nice but Im worried what will happen if my parents know I was dating or if they find out Im gay.

At this point like Its becoming so mentally draining when I lose people to suicide that when I try to care more than I do I cant. Im slowly losing emotion towards it and Im not sure what to do about that part either. All I can really do currently is move on or become less and less caring for people. Its odd considering how for most people that I know of they just get really really sad while I get emotionless.

And Its not like I dont care for these people I love them and all but Its just the more I get used to people dying the more emotionless towards death I become.

[mortal cipher]

WELL WHAT THE FUCK!!! MY NOW EX BOYFRIEND IS ALIVE!!! HE JUST MESSAGED ME AFTER A WHOLE ASS CONVO WITH HIS FRIEND.

WHO TOLD ME HE WAS DEAD

NAH NOW IM PISSED

[sterile cargo]

..... wow

[muted marlin]

holy shit

[gaunt garnet]

OH DAMN.

[dark compass]

…do you wanna talk to someone about it

[mortal cipher]

Yes that would be great. Sorry for taking so long to respond I was doing art for a long time yesterday to cool off

[muted marlin]

if you want to talk feel free to dm me