feeling low but don't know why

[edgy sand]

i'm just feeling lower and lower but i don't know why my therapist told me that i have anhedonia so i don't know why i keep feeling bad since i don't have any emotion i'm now just looking my screen without knowing what to do my insomnia just come and now i'm here writing this i don't know what to do with my life, my "love" i'm sending a little help if someone can

[silk sapphire]

Anhedonia is a symptom of depression, so that might only be part of the whole picture. It is defined as a loss of pleasure which probably contributes to making it hard to know what you want to do when you don't enjoy things. I totally get it because that's my experience as well

[edgy sand]

the thing is like my therapist told me i cannot feel anything i just have nothing so i don't really know how i can feel low

[silk sapphire]

I get that it doesn't make sense. If you feel low though, that suggests that you do feel something

I personally feel mostly negative emotions but rarely positive, so that leaves me feeling like I don't feel things sometimes. Not sure if that resonates with you at all

[edgy sand]

oh i see i know that i cannot feel positive thing but i know that i cannot feel bad as well but sometimes i think i'm not feeling low but just i overthink as f*ck and my mind get weird so i don't know what is it i don't know what is feeling i just don't know if what i'm feeling is real i just don't know what is to feel something

[silk sapphire]

Have you tried looking at an emotion wheel and seeing if you identify with any of the emotions on it? What you're feeling may be more complex than just happy/sad/angry etc

[edgy sand]

i didn't know that kind of thing exist

[silk sapphire]

if you Google emotion wheel you should be able to find it in images

[edgy sand]

the only thing i know i can feel is anxiety cause i have anxiety disorder

[silk sapphire]

Maybe it would be worth trying different things, like different activities

[edgy sand]

i tried so much thing but nothing make me feel something

i tried music, sport, game, board game, chatting with people but nothing made me feel something

i tried love as well, i'm now in a relationship but i don't think i'm feeling something for my boyfriend

[silk sapphire]

Has your therapist had any suggestions on what to do? They would probably be the most qualified person to help

Or maybe you could try medications to see if that helps. Sometimes therapy alone isn't enough

[edgy sand]

yes i have to change my therapist, cause i leave the place i were so i had to restart it and hope for a solution for now i'm just here waiting for something or someone i think

and i don't know how to say to my boyfriend that i doesn't know how i feel about him