What do I do (TW. SH)

[valid orbit]

I need some tips, I started to starve myself at the age of 5. And I couldn't stop and started to be dangerously thin, everytime I try to eat, it get full after 4 spoons of food
My mom started to hate me for it, idk what to do. Please help
(Starving is considered sh (I think)

[open quiver]

If u wanna get better, maybe start small. Eat 5 spoons, then maybe 5.5 then 6, and keep pushing to grow ur appetite. I sadly don't rly know what to do here 😔 but that's the best advice I can give