#A place for me to vent

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dense meteor
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Hello ppl, about 7 weeks or so i discovered that my repressed memorys were coming back slowly i decided that i would let them be and just drink a bit more heavy than usual to fix the shot feeling i always feel, well it didnt help as you could probably guess well then i thought i should try cutting and it helped alot and now it doesnt really do much anymore i am thinking of either stopping or waiting a bit and continuing should i dont really have anyone who could help me with this it is getting way worse than it has been in a while, the anxiety makes it so i cant do anything for the whole day fully and it is ruining my perfect image of being mentally well, so i ask you this:

Should i keep going?

lime flame
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No

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U can call or text 988 for help

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Maybe get a therapist

lime flame
dense meteor
dense meteor
dense meteor
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Im not suicidal yet so thats a good thing ig, though the intrusive thoughts dont help

lime flame
dense meteor
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Not sure

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Thought it was for us only

lime flame
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Well at least check out #🆘｜crisis-help-channels for some recources

lime flame
dense meteor
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Eh not worth the time and the money once i turn suicidal ill think about kt

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Just wanted to vent here ig idk, might delete

lime flame
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What isn't worth

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Ur money and time

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Bc most of those recources are free

dense meteor
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My own mental well being isnt that bad yet

lime flame
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They don't care how bad it is

dense meteor
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I care

lime flame
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They want to help you

dense meteor
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Its not worth it it will waste time and resources away from ppl who actually need ut

lime flame
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Um excuse me

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You need help and ur situation is just as serious as anybody else

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You are beautiful and u deserve people who will help you

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Please. Call or text for me

dense meteor
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Eh not really, not yet

lime flame
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I worry about u

dense meteor
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Cant

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I can text tho

lime flame
lime flame
dense meteor
lime flame
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❤️ ❤️ ❤️

dense meteor
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I legit cannot feel much anymore and ik its sad to sah buti just feel numb and very anxious thats it could be worse

lime flame
dense meteor
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Not really

lime flame
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You need and deserve help

dense meteor
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I dont need it tho

lime flame
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Don't wait for it to get worse

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It will just be harder to deal with

dense meteor
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It might get better tho

lime flame
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Waiting for it to get worse and just hoping it will get better

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Won't work sadly

dense meteor
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Its been holding pretty steady

lime flame
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If you want to get better you have to yry

dense meteor
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Do i want to get better is a very good question

lime flame
dense meteor
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It doesnt mater

lime flame
dense meteor
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It is just flesh and a bit of electricity it isnt that bad

dense meteor
lime flame
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You have so much to live for, and living through it sad is not good

dense meteor
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I ma pretty good with masking

dense meteor
lime flame
dense meteor
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Why would i

lime flame
dense meteor
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Eh ill think about it

lime flame
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The longer this goes on the worse it gets

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Please do

dense meteor
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Then why has it been the same tho

lime flame
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You aren't a waste of their time, and when you do get better, you will be thankful that u did reach out

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Well I gtg but please stay safe and happy

dense meteor
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Happy is a thing i havent felt in a loooong time

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But ill stay as safe as i can

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Ig.

inner marsh
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Keep being strong, we believe in you 💞

dense meteor
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sorry to say but it really doesnt get better

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as long as i dont want it

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Only way to get better is to want it

dense meteor
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indeed, and to go so far as to do what i have already, is at the same time interesting yet so painful, i feel like i am not in my own body i do not remember some days or most of my childhood, i remember maybe 2 or 3 things, it is not great @mortal wyvern

mortal wyvern
dense meteor
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i fell constantly anxious for no reason and sometimes i feel like i cannot breathe

mortal wyvern
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so u should see a therapist before things get late

dense meteor
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i keep staring into the void in hopes that the thoughts and the memorys go away

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yet they somehow dont

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its what ive done previously and it has worked fine

mortal wyvern
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i don't know it didn't work for me

dense meteor
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it is a very unfortunate thing

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it has worked for bout 19 years

mortal wyvern
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wait how old are you if ur comfortable to answer

dense meteor
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20

mortal wyvern
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oh

dense meteor
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yea

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i am old

mortal wyvern
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i mean im 16 so i may have made stupid decisions due to adolescence so i kind of don't know how to understand your feelings

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but things got worse for me so it may with you

dense meteor
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yea dw i dont understand them either

dense meteor
mortal wyvern
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a therapist could help you understand yourself

dense meteor
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nah i dont want to understand myself

mortal wyvern
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okay then