#TW: mention of a lot of bad things (couldn't put them here couse the hide thingy dosen't work)

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naive zinc
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so, I'm almost 14, and I'm at the end of middle school. I recently started not eating, having a lot of menthal heal problems and all of this is because for three damn years i've been picked on by some childlish calssmates, I've never been really bullied, more like a costant courus of little stupid voices telling you're worthels; i'm in a very small town in italy, so it's easy to be made fun of because you're gay, and since in the frist year, liked one of my classmates (ending up confessing to her) i prathicaly dug my own grave. I also have family issues, but all of this making fun of, has really gotten to me, last year I have a deep depression, starting self harm and having suicidal thoughts, all of this shit went and came in time, i was happy a week, and then i was completely destroyed the next. Last summer, i started having eating issues, i was terrified of gaining weight and that no girl could ever love me. Then, a few weeks ago, i touched the lowest point, i almost ||suicide||, and it's been like two weeks that I've been self harming a lot and not eating. Am I too sensible or is this really a shitty situation?

frozen musk
naive zinc
frozen musk
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wow, just wow

winged gust
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Ow... idk how to make you feel better but at least I can hive you a hug 🫂 (or sort of 😭)
You should eat, eat when you are hungry. Not eating is really not the best solution. You must eat because your body needs it. I know someone who did the same and had very bad problems for her period (she is 20 now and she still don’t have her period because she didn’t eat when she was 14/15 years old). Everyone is sensible, it’s normal to be. These people are dumb and I know it’s difficult for you... you should talk to psychologist because it’s their job to make you feel better and so you stop having bad situations like that. It will be okay I promise

naive zinc
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tysm, I'm alredy working with a therapist, today i had a session with my parent and we talked about my situations. Turns out I have childhoot trauma, attachment issues and a developing eating disorder. But today i aslo had the frist dinner in Weeks, so let's say it's a start.

trail tendon
frozen musk
naive zinc