#Tw : mention of ||suicide||, depression and ||sex addiction||

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fallen ibex
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I'm just so lost. My mom already told me it’s normal because I'm a teen but I don’t know what to do tbh. Btw I'm french so my english is not very good sometimes, sorry.

So first of all I'm stressed because of school and my sex addiction. I have no motivation, always in a bad mood, I have fake friends...

  • School : I have bad grades (2/20 in maths) I'm bad at science etc, I'm always late for exams, I'm always stressing. It’s been 6 years it’s like that and I just want to stop everything. I'm watching youtube videos to have motivation and it worked but for not long at all. I want to have a good life, good grades, make my parents proud and just be happy. I like school but I'm never productive and always late for everything, everytime. Idk what to do anymore. Luckily my school year ends on june 6.

  • Sex addiction : It’s been 4 years (smth like that) that I'm watching weird videos about sex and all (yk because I don’t want to mention the web). I've been thinking of that since 2 years now and I want to stop that. I can’t. I'm always like "yeah I will stop tomorrow, never gonna watch videos about that and think of that" but the day after I just continue. I want to stop because I think I'm disgusting and I'm crying because of that. As I said my mom told me it’s "normal" but I don’t think it’s normal. It’s stressing me and I never talked about it to someone (except my mom and an online friend, today) and idk how to say it and explain it. Sometimes I just want to ||kill myself||. I'm feeling like I'm a drama queen and I complain about everything in life but for that I'm serious. I'm trying to tell my mom (I never told anything to my dad) and she don’t understand anyway. I've been trying to explain to her but she always say "don’t worry about that it’s normal and all" but... ...well I guess this feeling is normal after all. Bruh

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Part 2 :

  • No motivation : I'm trying to have motivation, like everytime, but I give up and start scrolling on Instagram :/
    It’s because of that, that I have bad grades, I'm late and everything.

  • I keep forgetting everything : I had to eat with my best friend and I forgot so yeah this always happend to important things. It’s becaude of this stupid phone I know it

I guess I'm just stressed, tired and lost after all. Curently trying to be mentally better but don’t worry y’all, I think I'm good now. I have moods like that and I keep falling. I just have to see the situation from a different point of view and talk about it with someone I know very well. I'm trying to understand, sorry for the confusion I talked with my mom and my step dad and now I understand some things.

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(I'm better now, I just wanted to talk)

dusk egret
timid thorn
fallen ibex
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It’s fine

thorny iron
timid thorn
fallen ibex
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Thank you ❤️

thorny iron
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im sorry that you are dealing with all of that, for the addiction, maybe try and just not watch those videos for like one day and then as time progresses dont watch the videos for more and more time (i have the same addiction and it sucks bc you feel so nasty), try and talk to someone about it, and for grades just try your hardest, and try the best you can. Not everyone is great at school and thats ok

timid thorn
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hope my advice will help

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:D

thorny iron
fallen ibex
fallen ibex
fallen ibex
timid thorn
thorny iron
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you are welcome :)

simple burrow
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As i understand it you spend a lot of time on your phone bc it comforts you and distracts you from all the bad things, which in itself is not harmful, but when you start hating your coping-method that can become pretty dangerous. I suggest you do whatever makes you the most happy, if it's spending time on the internet to make yourself feel better that's completely valid, at the same time, when it brings you more joy having good grades in school then try to focus on school more (but start slowly, if you completely put away your phone to just learn that's not really beneficial either). So basically, try to do what makes you happy.

quasi pewter
# fallen ibex I did that not long ago and it helped but now idk I just cancel the time limit �...

try to remember why you set that time limit, if you keep canceling it or ignoring it then it's going to be useless, also, don't pressure yourself too much with trying to be better:c, just try to remember that you want to be better and maybe try a bit harder to do better (I don't wanna seem rude and I understand that it will be really tough to do that but please try ur best I believe in u!! C:) also, sex addiction is understandable but try to find other things to do when you get the urge such as watching yt videos or doing stuff that u like example: drawing, listening to music or maybe even studying to maybe do better in school!:D, it may be difficult at first but if u keep trying, for sure you will improve:>

Note: sorry if this didn't help e

fallen ibex
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Thanks a lot, eveyone 🩷

timid thorn
thorny iron
timid thorn
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@fallen ibex how are you doing?

fallen ibex
timid thorn
fallen ibex
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Yep ! And because it’s very sunny outside, I'll go on my step dad’s boat tomorrow (rn I'm cleaning my room, idk if it’s very interesting anyway 😅)

timid thorn
fallen ibex
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Update: I am going into the second general year of high school (in France) with the following subjects: history, geography, political science and geopolitics + contemporary world English + economic and social sciences.

So I got accepted in my high school ^^

timid thorn
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oh cool! Thats good! :)

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may i send you a friend request? @fallen ibex (sry if this is weird)

fallen ibex