#How can I stop? TW: Sh

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timber knot
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So uhm... its my first time writing here but I want to know how I can stop myself from Sh. I do it since 12 days every night and I can do it anymore and I start to cut deeper and I am scared. What if I cut to deep? (and no I wont / cant talk with my parents/ Friends). Please Help

fossil shell
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Hi

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I'm guessing you're not doing very well at the moment for you to be doing this.
Do you want to talk about it?

timber knot
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Yes, please.

fossil shell
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What's up ?

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Tell me

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so its kinda because school, familie and my "best" friend

fossil shell
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All right, what happened (if you want to talk about it)?

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My friend is kinda inorieng me but then not and i am very confused. I dont know if i did something wrong and when i try and talk to her she just says that nothing is wrong. (sorry for the bad english, i am german)

fossil shell
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Why do you think your friend is angry with you? (Don't worry, I'm French)

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Idk because I sleep a Weekend Over at hers and after that she just "ignored" me

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and now i am scared because she is my only friend and i dont want to lose her

fossil shell
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It's normal to be afraid of losing someone. I was in your situation. How's school?

timber knot
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its terribly

fossil shell
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Harassment ?

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that too (from the not german boys in other class) (not rassist)

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i am also slowly starting to fail in school

fossil shell
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Have you tried talking about it? I know how difficult it is. When I told people, they never believed me and that went on for 3 years.

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they let it slide

fossil shell
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I'm sorry

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like they see it and say that my clothes are to short or some shit like that

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(i wear baggy clothes)

fossil shell
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I'm telling you, the problem is their behaviour, not your clothes !

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Dress as you like

timber knot
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and secondly i am too shy to wear short pants and idk a crop top

fossil shell
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It's okay

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Is there something wrong with your clothes or something else?

timber knot
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i think not because i am literly wearing a baggy jeans and a t- shirt from my dad and I EVEN WEAR CLOVES

fossil shell
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Ah yes 😂

timber knot
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Shoult i wear a bag around my body?

fossil shell
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You also said you had a problem with your family, if I'm not mistaken.

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kinda just with the husband of my mom and a little with my dad

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i am almost everyday in an argument with my "stepdad" and my dad kinda doesnt want me

fossil shell
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Why ?

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because my mom lied to him, she sayed that the toke a injection and cant become pregnant and then she became pregnant. and also she is demanting more child money

fossil shell
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Ah yes, the famous family problems. A joy. I know it's never easy. I don't think you live it well?

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i "lock" myself in my room

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Do you feel lonely?

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yes but i am also happy to be alone

fossil shell
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I had the same feeling when I was harassed

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Did anything in particular happen to make you start cutting yourself?

timber knot
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no just the friend thing is kinda heavy and my body is conserning me

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so i like my body but after seeing other girls i started to think so i stoped eating so much and eat now just one meal a day and i am also doing sport

fossil shell
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Do you know heartstopper?

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How long have you been doing this?

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heartstopper?

fossil shell
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Yeah, heartstopper

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i am sorry

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whats wrong?

fossil shell
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It's a Netflix series

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timber knot
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sorry but i dont have netflix

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It's also books (graphic novels)

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Do you know about eating disorders?

timber knot
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no

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whats that

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if you dont mind me asking

lethal kayak
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It's when you eat too much or almost nothing at all

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It's abnormal eating behaviors if you prefer

timber knot
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but i eat okay

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just once a day

lethal kayak
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Try to eat at least twice a day please

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I know it can be hard but only one meal can be dangerous

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why dangerous?

lethal kayak
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Because it "may increase blood pressure and cholesterol levels" and also make you feel more hungry and craving

timber knot
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when i start feeling hungry i just eat a gum or drink much water

lethal kayak
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And if you're still growing up it can be possible that you don't have enough energy with one meal a day

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It also can make you feel hard to concentrate

timber knot
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hmm

fossil shell
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It's not a joke

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This comportement can be dangerous for your body and your result to school

timber knot
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but what if my friends stop like me because of my body

lethal kayak
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They should not stop liking you because of your body. If they do I'm sorry but you need to make new friends

fossil shell
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If you're feeling unwell, call 116 117

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lethal kayak
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😔 maybe outside school you can try to make some new
Idk if you do any sports but you can try to make friends there

timber knot
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i do sport at home

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and what should i do at school alone?

lethal kayak
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I used to talk to online people a lot instead of real people, so maybe you can try online 🤷‍♀️

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timber knot
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thanks i will look over it tomorrow

lethal kayak
timber knot
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okay, thank you both for helping me and i am sorry that i waste some of your time

lethal kayak
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Nooo I have nothing to do at all don't worry

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By the way if you want to watch Heartstopper I can help you

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I know you said you don't have Netflix