#I cant let her go.. TW:SH ETC

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terse sedge
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me and my gf have been dating for 4 years and she just texted me without explanation saying “i found someone else” like..??? how do you expect me to react to that.. i got scared immediately because i have attachment issues and she just BLOCKED ME..i couldn’t handle the stress so TW: i started to C-T but now i regret it because i’ve told my friends i would quit because i was already doing it before..

it wasnt only that but bc my parents were fighting a lot and stressing me out about grades when they don’t know that ima struggling to keep myself alive but at the same time i’m suffering

and i got addicted to TW: h4rmjng myself more often
what should i do?.. i have the feeling to end my life so bad

brisk gulch
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Hey

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Are you okay ?

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can you tell me more about it?

mint shore
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That sounds absolutely terrible. I can't imagine how bad you must feel right now. The fact that she blocked you and wasn't even willing to tell you face to face, in my opinion really shows how immature, insecure and selfish she is. I feel so sorry that you are the one having to go through such stress and pressure now. You absolutely deserve better.
I'm really worried about you harming yourself in order to cope with stress. I know that it must be very hard to stop yourself from doing it, but there are always different options.
I would suggest that you talk to a therapist about everything that's going on. They will definitely be able to help. Your feelings are absolutely valid. You matter and deserve all the help you need.
Life will always be shitty and there are gonna be many times when you are gonna feel down and feel like you can't do it anymore. It's very important in those situations to take time for yourself and find comfort in things you enjoy. It's also very important to talk about your feelings with the people you trust and accept professional help as well. You are not wrong for feeling the way you feel. You deserve to feel happy and healthy again and to see the good things in life, even if it's just the little moments where you close your eyes and breath in some fresh air or the fun talks with people you love.
You deserve all the love and support you need. Please consult a therapist or a suicide hotline (it's free and anonymous) if you feel like harming yourself right now. You are not wrong or weak for seeking and accepting help because YOU MATTER. You are very brave for holding on and can be proud of yourself for surviving each and every day of your life. Always remember that you are human and no one can devalue who you are.
It won't be easy to let her go. But you deserve better than an immature, selfish partner. Give yourself time and I'm sure you're gonna find someone very special one day. I wish you all the best and that you stay safe. You matter ❤️

terse sedge