Am i dramatic? | Pridecord | Page 1

For a bit if context, im diagnosed with a lot of stuff: TW a lot of diagnostics incase that triggers someone. ||Autism, Adhd, Schizophrenia, Bpd, C-PTSD, Social Phobia, Early childhood depression, Dissociative Amnesia|| and i already have a disability card.

I have this thing, Where at some points. i might make an OC/Sona, where i get OVERLY invested.
It's not just using it a lot in drawings...But actually as if i AM them. Like as if im not ME anymore. the person i was born as.

Or an actual character that i find relatable.
For example, Currently Burning spice.
I act a lot like him whenever i have a chance to speak. i dress like he would. Id try to sound like he would and it strains and hurts my vocal cords. ANYTHING to be that character.

I can't even tell who i am anymore a lot of the time.
Because a lot of times. im always someone else.
Never myself.
Never the person i was born as.

Always an existing character.
always a character i made up.

this has been going on since primary
i haven't felt like myself anymore for years.
Always feeling like i want to be someone else.
but not knowing if im someone else already

I've been non stop changing my room and my FARM on how my characters/existing characters would make the farm and room look.
at some points it even bothered my animals too.

I can't tell anymore for how long this will go on.
or what's causing this

#Am i dramatic?