everything is fine for me rn, but i still feel terrible

[warm palm]

As a whole my life isn't very "unsuccessful". I have all A's in school, i have a great accepting family, I'm working out now and playing sports. But I still have this sinking feeling a lot of the time. Maybe it's because I don't feel fulfilled by most of what I do, or that I can't seem to think of anything and put it into reality; I just don't know why I feel so crappy so often.

[oak canopy]

I'm in that current situation actually. Except my studies are going less successfully lol. With the crappiness, I think a good solution is to just get stuck in life and not think about it. Kinda hard to do, but with some good friends who look out for you and just realising nothing really matters in the universe, you can relax a bit. (nothing matters as in there's no end result for bad actions or thoughts as we'll all perish in the inevitable heat-death of the universe. Unless you're religious ofc, then you should apply that in whatever context makes sense). Apart from that, a therapist maybe? I could just be reflecting my own thoughts rn but I think it applies to you so you're welcome :).

[warm palm]

It's just feels weird to me, I've taken huge steps in my physical and mental health, but I just randomly feel terrible during my day. Like even the smallest bit of negativity just ruins things for me.
I guess I just need to care less, but I find myself caring about everyone else anyway.
I just hate the fact that I know what to do to make things better, but I keep ending up feeling the same anyway.

[oak canopy]

I'm the same. It's like spontaneous depression.

[glass finch]

Yeah that’s a pretty common thing to feel. I get random times or days where I’m just… depressed for no reason

Kind of a normal thing to feel really

[oak canopy]

I think so too

[glass finch]

I think the thing to do is to just, pardon my French, don’t give a shit about doing anything unless it personally makes you happy (except of course like, responsibilities, like school)

[warm palm]

It's really hard for me to do that. (Not to sound narcissistic) But I guess I'm too nice, I guess. Like It's just an impulse for me to put everyone else first, and so it's hard for me to be even a little selfish.

[oak canopy]

There's a good book by Mark Manson called The Subtle Art Of Not Giving A F*ck which is really good, especially in this type of situation

[glass finch]

I get where you’re coming from. It’s good to have compassion for people (sometimes I wish I had more of that) but you choose who you spend time with. Maybe choose people who care about you too??

[warm palm]

My friends right now kinda suck, so I'm definitely trying to make new ones, but I've never really pushed people out of my social life before. On the other hand, I'm tired of meeting people. Like, as long as I remember all of my friends have been people I've talked to first and really cultivated the relationship with, and I just feel so done with being the one who reached out, y'know?

[glass finch]

…

I could be your friend…

If you want

[warm palm]

For sure :3