Am I the issue or is it the people online?

[gritty grail]

I’m on discord a lot so I’m in a lot of servers. And in a lot of servers, they have where you can post pictures of yourself.
I have self image issues and so I post my fit checks there to get me out of my comfort zone and help when it comes to those issues.
I get compliments about how I look and how good my outfits are and it feels good.

However today in one of the servers I was in I posted another one right and im wearing a dress. Nothing to crazy because im going to a graduation ceremony.

However a couple of the members started saying a lot of shit to me. Like about my appearance. Now I’ve gotten jokes about my dumb forehead being to big and I really don’t care because they are jokes ya know. And honestly some of them are funny, like I’ll play tic tac foe because it’s funny.

Anyway they started to comment on everything, my eyes, my glasses, my hair, how I looked underweight, and just other stuff. This was all in the span of less than 10 minutes.

I just want to cry, I feel so god damn insecure now. And I just feel awful. I feel like the most ugly person ever. Like my fucken bf doesn’t love me for how I look. He says he does and he said he has our entire relationship but now I don’t feel is true.
Was everyone’s compliments just so I can feel good? Were they laying to me the whole time?
I hate myself so fucken much. I hate how I fucken look.

Mind you im not underweight
Im 5’2 (157.48 cm) and I weigh between 110-115 pounds (49.89-52.16 kg)

I sorry if my math is wrong im from the USA

[solar ermine]

I'm sorry that you experienced such things. You shouldn't put much weight on other people's opinions. There is no need to feel that way. You are amazing, just the way you are and you have to change for absolutely nobody. Wear whatever you want, dress however you want and express yourself the way you want. If you're uncomfortable around that discord server, you should contact the moderators, they should normally take care of such fkers. Otherwise it might be best to look for a more welcoming place to share your pictures. But never change for some jerks that don't even know you personally.

[gritty grail]

The thing is, the mods saw. At least two of them were in on the whole thing. Luckily one of the upper mods stopped it. He told the mods that were doing it to go in the staff chat and shit
Idk it just feels awful and I can’t tell if im just being dramatic about this or not because normally one insult I just ignore
It just hurts. I’ve had people do this but it’s not been this bad. At least not in a while.

It’s whatever, I’ll live and get over this.

[solar ermine]

Hey, you are not dramatic over anything. It's understandable, that you feel hurt about this. But you shouldn't take it too personal. There are people that love and respect you just the way you are.

[gritty grail]

True true you have a point

[jagged jungle]

i bet you look beautiful, and those people were just jealous of your looks