lean plinth
5/2/2025 is when i had lost one of my most bestest friends to cancer. Known him for a little over 5 years. Growing up he's always either had head problems or heart problems. And sadly back in 2024 of August, he was diagnosed with brain cancer. A kiwi size mass at the bottom of his brain. This year was not that great.
This year on easter i had lost my grandfather's newphew in a heart attack during a housefire. And on the last of april i had lost my great aunt to Alzheimer's disease.
August 7th of 2023 was when i had also lost my grandfather from my moms side to Alzheimer's as well. Hated it all, back to back deaths of a family member has really messed up a small part of me. Like the one part that I'll never get back has just poofed out of existence.
Came to just vent it all out, may come back each day and just talk about my day and how i feel and stuff.
I've felt many emotions during the past 3 years.
Some emotions were confusing. Other's didn't really make sense to me. Guess it just hasn't really hit me yet that this is reality. This is life. This is how the world is. Either you fight enough to live as much as possible or you just give up and let life push you around. And right now,i don't think I'm going to let life push me around as much anymore. All i have to do is wait for time to tell. Than I'll think about my decisions. Think for myself for a moment than make my choice. And hopefully every choice i make is the right one.
fresh grotto
Wish you all the best and much support. 