I hate this sm

[gaunt sparrow]

Why am I like this? I can't take criticism, I'm not good at anything, I can't speak up to someone, I'm either too emotional or not empathetic. I lie unconsciously, I'm aggressive. I'm too tired to even focus, insomnia is building up, im scared what my friends will think of me. Even though I can open up I can't do it properly I always add a lie or two to make it seem OK but it's not. There's always someone contradicting me, if I'm mad I'm hated, if I'm happy I'm annoying. I can't have my own space, the only reason I can vent here is because noone I know is it it. I have migraines almost every day bit I can't stop them or make them better. I'm not a good friend, I can't even be happy of my friends achievements. I realised I'm not good at anything. I burned out. Now I'm nothing, I'm not free to do the stuff I want. to date the people I want to date. I'm seen as "funny" or "crazy". I'm not even worthy of my friends, I bet I make them worse. I want to be happy. I am happy for them I just hate that I'm happy instead of jealous. Maybe if I was jealous I'd have it easier, but i don't know what this feeling is.

[languid tendon]

hey. i’m really sorry things feel like this right now. it sounds like your brain is just full of noise, like there’s no off-switch and everything’s either too much or not enough. like you’re carrying every emotion all at once and none of them make sense.💔

you’re not broken. i mean that. you’re not bad for struggling with criticism, or for lying sometimes without realizing, or for being tired all the time. those aren’t things that make you a bad person—they’re things that happen when you’re overwhelmed, burnt out, maybe hurting more than you’re letting yourself admit.

none of this makes you worthless. it just means you’re human. a really tired human.

you are allowed to have weird, confusing feelings about your friends. not being able to express that perfectly doesn’t make you fake. not being jealous doesn’t mean you’re doing emotions wrong. there’s no right way to feel. just your way.

and the whole “if i’m mad i’m hated, if i’m happy i’m annoying” thing? that’s not on you. that’s just the world not knowing how to handle people who feel a lot. but that doesn’t mean you have to shut yourself down. it doesn’t mean you’re too much. it just means you haven’t been given the space you should’ve had to feel things safely.

you’re not nothing. burnout lies to your face and tells you that. but you’re still here. and that counts.

it’s okay to not know what the feeling is. it’s okay to feel like everything’s tangled. even just getting it out like this is a start. you’re not alone in this mess.

your struggles aren't beautiful, but your survival definitely is

if you want to keep talking, i am here. no judgment. just space.

[gaunt sparrow]

TYSM

[languid tendon]

hope you recover soon!

[split totem]

I mean rn

youre opening up

so thats a start

[safe falcon]

ntm

[mental trellis]

Honestly ignore those people they just wanna make Ur life hell

[gaunt sparrow]

Yes I try to

[fading moss]

@gaunt sparrow , Okay, idk if this is good advice but… visit an animal shelter? Just see the cute animals. Since people are kinda sh*t, I feel like animals is a good way to interact without human judgement. Just me tho.

[gaunt sparrow]

yes!! im thinking of going to a cat cafe

but animals usually hate me tho...

i cant remmeber the last time a cat let me pet it....

[gaunt sparrow]

haha life is indeed sad

[gaunt sparrow]

gon.... you are light itself
komugi, can you hold my hand.... one last time?
i knew it.... they always did look better on you
i did have one regret, the fact i left you behind
if saving you was a sin, i'd be a sinner
my six eyes tell me you're suguru geto, but my heart and soul knows otherwise
no matter how you do it, if you're happy.. my dream will come true
please! let me take her place!
my god, my universe
thank you for being the victim of my shallow emotions
to live is to be known and remembered by others
all you gotta do is look at my back as i lead the way
im sorry, i couldn't tell you after all this time
i look forward to the moment we can dance again
"perhaps after dust settles after a storm, we too must one day return to the world before"
"if we're reborn, if we are reborn again as humans... will you make me your wife?"
Sorry Cheng Xiaoshi I’ve always been telling you to not change the past but I couldn’t follow my own words. Even if I know death is an unchangeable point, I still want to use the last chance to go back to the beginning, and save you.
you can stay here… and become a mokke yourself…
tell me you fool... if i continue to regress, will i ever get to meet you again?
luka... live with love
you were never created to be sad, guilty, shamed or unworthy. you were created to be proud, happy, victorious.
if I was a woman, maybe loving you wouldn't be a sin.
you are not alone, ash. - That's one japanese word i should've never taught you - ash's letter
I'll stick with ya till the end. even if something inside of me breaks...
thank you... my life was meaningful.
To my dearest historia...
izuku... can i still catch up to you?
"am i cute?" - "the cutest girl in the whole world"
i will fall in love with you over and over again, i dont care how where or when. no matter how long its been, you're mine.
(btw did you know that cheng xiaoshi hung himself in one timeline? the more you know!!)