brave pelican
Long and short of it is that I've been going to my gym for about three months. I've been exclusively using the men's locker room. Tuesday, the Director and the Head of Membership Admissions pull me aside from my swimming laps in the pool and gently tell me that I can no longer use the men's facilities, nor women's. My choice is to use the locked family facilities.
I pass; the pizza guy calls me sir, I have a full beard. This has not been an issue, and I've not done anything to warrant this action against me beyond being trans.
Their interaction blindsided me, to be honest, because I'd expressed to my fitness instructor that I've been struggling more with suicidal ideation due to stress from my sister's new living situation, and I'd expected the conversation to be about seeking counseling through the ministry service that the company that owns my gym provides.
Yesterday, I felt a panic attack creeping on while in the pool, excused myself to the changing room, and ended up having a seizure. I have a history of seizures linked to psychosomatic symptoms, and I imagine the stress fucked up my cortisol levels enough to trigger something. I've opted to stay home, now, since the place that I'd thought was safe has shown me that it very much is not. I'd appreciate any thoughts on the situation or advice. I'm working with some of my connections in town to try to appeal the policy.
EDIT: spelling/grammar
dawn zephyr