rich nacelle
Hope my English don't confuse y'all, so here's my situation
It's been more than 3 years since I've feeling that the body that I was born, isn't something a like to keep living with. I'm a girl in a boy's body, and this just makes very sad and uncomfortable every single day
Some people that know about my real self, just...doesn't respect, or just don't threat me like I wanted, just keep using the wrong name or keeps trying to talk to me like I'm some kind of girl that like boys things (something like that, it's hard to describe)
This year, I've already written 2 single papers of 30+ lines with just me trying to describe how do I feel and wake every day, describing every single feeling and pain that I feel, and sometimes, it's really hard to find a good meaning to don't give up
Coming up to the topic of feeling discarded, I've been feeling this every day, with almost every single person that I know. I feel like I'm just a burden and a person that doesn't deserve love or attention at all. Everyone that I try to talk, sometimes, my mind keeps saying to myself that I really need to just let the person alone again and blame myself to make the person try to pretend that cares about me
I just...don't know what exactly to do to feel better, but in a definitive way
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