#TW: Sui + mental health.

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deft hollow
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Well this is the first time I reach out here for this.
But lately the last 3-4 days my life just went upside down. I don’t know how to explain it but I just got to know my work times at my first ever real job. It’s 7am to 4pm Monday to Friday. (Take a note I’m 20.)
I honestly start to regret getting this job, I feel like I won’t be able to do what makes me stay alive, this means going on concerts, traveling around the world etc. I feel like I’m gonna be stuck in this little work bubble for the next 20-40 years, and that’s not how I want it.
But that’s not the real problem, the real problem is that my own mental health is going down real bad and real quick. I’ve been fighting with it for 8-11 years and honestly I’m tired of it by now.
Sometimes I just wanna end it all and I feel like I’m a burden to all people around me.
Also that this one guy who was one of my best online friends again starts to go away from me and we just getting further and further away. I hate it.
I kinda just hate life as it is rn, I have a therapist but honestly I don’t wanna tell her all this.
Right now I just wanna crash out and cry and hope god takes me early ngl. I can’t fight like this my whole life.
I need help ngl.

finite kernel
deft hollow
finite kernel
deft hollow
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Also people talking bad about me behind my back and calling me dramatic for expressing how I feel

finite kernel
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I want you to know that when you unalive. The pain does not go away

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It multiplies, because it is spread to everyone who cares about you.

finite kernel
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always remember that.

deft hollow
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I also struggle a lot to tell people how I feel, and get attached to people easily and then my day depends how they treat ne

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me

mystic venture