quasi frigate
Yesterday was mothers day. And I tried to contact my mom just for her to request to only talks to blayke and millie, she then shows that she got gifts for only the two and quite literally told me she forgot I existed, so today is her birthday, i attempt to get ahold of her. She promised to come to my concert tomorrow night but said she's too busy. But God forbid she be too busy for millie and blayke.. so now I'm stuck thinking and knowing that maybe if I do kms she will finally notice me.. I'm getting to tired of everything.. I want nothing more but to be loved and noticed ... you see, after dad left when I was 7. She got with some literal fucking criminal. They both beat me for about 5-6 whole years and I was told it was always gonna be my fault that I've lost my mother's love. The pain I suffer every day from lack of love. From both mom and dad hurts so bad... it makes me feel like my whole world is crumbling apart, idk what to do anymore but to sit here amd cry myself to sleep every night just hoping that one day I will be noticed and cherished as much as my siblings are.. sometimes I wonder why they didn't just give me up if all they will do is neglect and hate me. I'm so tired.. I just wanna end it..
urban shore