#i’m sick of my friends

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wicked quest
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hi i’m surprisingly back, for a different reason:

OOGH update here i got a depression and ADHD diagnosis and is medicated now!

Anyways, vent time

I’ve been feeling REAL fucking sick of my friends. Like we’re in a group together where like we hang out with my friends right but recently they’ve been ignoring my messages, and when i’d send stuff they don’t respond. Instead they start a whole new thing— and that’s making me feel left out. I even joined a call, and they didn’t even acknowledge me until one said “oh btw your fine shyt is here” and i wasn’t even said hi to. (context my GF is also in this chat.) I feel like i’m just being used for my artistic abilities, and im a “convenient friend” if that makes sense.

I don’t belong in this group, do i? cause if it’s at the point i feel like I’m being blatantly ignored then now what.

Not to mention one keeps calling me fat when i uh do have an ED, so that’s not fun.

I want to confront them about how i feel but i feel an immense amount of guilt bubbling up cause i know they have worse home lives than me. Also not to mention, they talk shit about their “friends”, and I have been lowkey distancing myself and matching their tone (cause hello why do i have to give you energy when you don’t give it back)—im worried they’re talking shit about me.

i feel under appreciated.

like im not there, but if i confront them they’re the type of people to blame it on their mental health issues.

That’ll get nowhere

This is getting nowhere!

hard kraken
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Sounds like these people don't really think of you as a friend, and if that's the case than neither should you of them.

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Also, just because someone else has their own issues, doesn't mean you aren't allowed your own. Each person has their own situation and problems that come with it. They shouldn't be compared and if someone is making it seem otherwise, that's them creating an issue.

wicked quest
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Thanks for responding :]

I just don’t know what to do in this situation. Like i said my GF is in this chat, and i love her, i really do but she’s apart of the thing that’s making me feel left out. I could never say this to their faces though, cause then they’ll feel it’s their fault (albeit is) but, i don’t want them to like crash out on me or hate me you know? Being hated is one of my greatest fears in life, so it’s either feel like shit but it’s bottled or feel like shit and it’s out, but you’re hated. They make me feel so sick ins starting to feel it physically and it’s getting worse suddenly. I stare at my phone and try to like get the courage to talk to them, and speak about my problems but it’s really just a dream. I really wished this whole ordeal was fake and a dream. Like, i miss how me and those friends were when we met in the beginning! I’m gonna be honest now this friendship is getting hurt wrenching.

hard kraken
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While a negative response may be uncomfortable, the results of these toxic friends you have right now seem like they’re doing much worse

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And it is their fault from the sound of it, nothings gonna change if you don’t call it out. There’s really only two choices in this situation, call it out and hope they are willing to change, or find friends who actually want to be friends with you.

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Have you maybe at least talked to your GF about, I mean, I’d assume she’d want the best for you.

wicked quest
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Honestly, yeah a little- but i haven’t said much cause I’m scared of her hating me, but after i left that gc (cause i need space from all of them) one of my friends showed me that now they’re talking about their ex and how they missed them, and that don’t feel GREAT- but it’s nice to know their true intentions. I wanted to mention, i think she’s having a meltdown right now though,- i don’t know over what. I’m worried for her, but i feel so sick i can’t check in. It’s like conflicting yk?