hi i’m surprisingly back, for a different reason:
OOGH update here i got a depression and ADHD diagnosis and is medicated now!
Anyways, vent time
I’ve been feeling REAL fucking sick of my friends. Like we’re in a group together where like we hang out with my friends right but recently they’ve been ignoring my messages, and when i’d send stuff they don’t respond. Instead they start a whole new thing— and that’s making me feel left out. I even joined a call, and they didn’t even acknowledge me until one said “oh btw your fine shyt is here” and i wasn’t even said hi to. (context my GF is also in this chat.) I feel like i’m just being used for my artistic abilities, and im a “convenient friend” if that makes sense.
I don’t belong in this group, do i? cause if it’s at the point i feel like I’m being blatantly ignored then now what.
Not to mention one keeps calling me fat when i uh do have an ED, so that’s not fun.
I want to confront them about how i feel but i feel an immense amount of guilt bubbling up cause i know they have worse home lives than me. Also not to mention, they talk shit about their “friends”, and I have been lowkey distancing myself and matching their tone (cause hello why do i have to give you energy when you don’t give it back)—im worried they’re talking shit about me.
i feel under appreciated.
like im not there, but if i confront them they’re the type of people to blame it on their mental health issues.
That’ll get nowhere
This is getting nowhere!