I do therapy. I already texted my therapist. Tomorrow we'll have a session. But, I'm out of my mind today, realizing how deep that mother fucker fucked up my mind... more than I thought. Today is Mother's Day and.. I'm feeling a deep.. deep anger for her. She didn't protected me. For fucking 3 years. She didn't. And that mother fucker gross man is out there, somewhere. God, forgive me, but I really.. really hope.. that my abuser is dead, and that he had a really really slow and torturous death.. or if he still alive, I wish a slow and torturous death anyways. I swear, I'm a good person, I try my best, and I never felt hate, like real and pure hate for someone... only for him. I know, it's in the past, but damn... the consequences of his abuse, are destroying me slowly. At least I'm noticing one by one. But damn.. I'm trying, so hard.. to believe that life is really worthy. I'm trying.
#Figuring out that my childhood abuse fucked up my mind more than I thought
uncut crag
what was the abuse if your comfortable telling that
coarse aspen
I do therapy. I already texted my therapist. Tomorrow we'll have a session. But,...
that is really rough your mom not being there to help you is definetly the worst part like a mom is supposed to help you with these kinds of things and tbh you dont have to be happy and caring for her today cause i mean screw her she knows what she did its totally fair to get mad her but if this madness stays maybe you gotta either take it out with a sport or smt or on a boxxing bag or maybe just by lying on the floor with some relaxing music idk why but that always seems to help and for know just hold on to yourself you got this your therapist will hopefully be able to help you through this aswell and also frick that abuser actually like yeh funk him i wish the same things on him as you did
(if you need anyone to vent to more or just speak to dms are open)
vagrant drum
what was the abuse if your comfortable telling that
Sexual and verbal
vagrant drum
that is really rough your mom not being there to help you is definetly the worst...
Thank you 😭🫰🏼🫶🏻
coarse aspen
np
vagrant drum
It's hard to face the fact, that your mom chosed the ignorance instead you, she chosed a fucking creep pedo instead of you. I think she never knew about the sexual part and I never told her. But she saw the verbal abuse right in front of her, he yelling at a 8 years old girl and she used to argue with ME, not him.
Fucked up
But yeah, sometimes we have bad days, and I'm allowing myself to feel bad, to feel the bad things
coarse aspen
dude yeh no frick your mom aswell she was just as bad as the abuser tbh holy is she still like this?
vagrant drum
I'm just tired to think that I need to be strong and look okay
coarse aspen
But yeah, sometimes we have bad days, and I'm allowing myself to feel bad, to fe...
yeh i mean thats good you shouldnt need to bottle it up letting it out just really helps you through
coarse aspen
I'm just tired to think that I need to be strong and look okay
you dont you really dont cause your just not atm and thats totally fair to not be your going through a rough time and maybe depending on how your mom is a good piece of adive might be to just stay with a friend for most of the day so that you dont have to deal with your mom or even just seeing your mom and thinking of the awful things she did
vagrant drum
dude yeh no frick your mom aswell she was just as bad as the abuser tbh holy is ...
She still ignorant, but not with him anymore.. but it was 3 long long years
vagrant drum
you dont you really dont cause your just not atm and thats totally fair to not b...
Oh, I don't live with her anymore 🙏🏻
So, at least I can manage when I go to see her or not
coarse aspen
Oh Alr that’s nice atleast just stick through with your therapy you’ve got this