Maybe coming out to my parents soon

[abstract halo]

My issue at the moment isnt my parents or my friend IRL, my parents are just downright terrible to hide it.

Reason I prefer being a semi-closeted transgirl is because of most of my other family is very religious and my parents are the first that break the religion train with my mum and dad being atheist.

I know I would definitly lose connections to 90% of my family as their heavy religous belief.

I am stuck in a conservative family with my parents being semi-progressive. Its sad my parents can't lie at all so I'm stuck in doubt to come out until 18 or now or leave my family and never come out to them.

Its an issue I suffer with more things as I already am hated in the family for not being religious by my choice. (Cause I got a choice from my parents to be religious)

I'm also sort of stuck on coming out to my friends, 1 already knows I am, however with the others. I'm confused if their for or against it certainly with the fact 1 has a trans brother. Whilst the other is a closeted non-binairy whilst they don't even know I know (only reason I know is cause some mean person told me that their non-binairy as we are in the same communtiy only in different corners, and that person has direct connection to us both online...).

A final smaller issue is my dads friends, to keep short. They have it out for me for no reason. What did I do to them even? Like just leave me alone and please shush. This is mainly an issue as my dad has been friends with them for a while

Final issue of why i'm even doubting coming out is that I am TERRIBLE around high-pressure situation and bullying as I am very sensitive emotion wise however I just try to act above it yet it always catches up to me.

To conclude, everyone in my family is basically a no-go to come out whilst coming out to my friends is a possible but hard task is me overthrowing my anxiousness

I want to come out but feel pressured to stay in my egg for the "better" of my family.

Any advice? (Mainly for family issues)

[brazen kiln]

if you know for sure they will not accept you coming out, then i'd either leave as soon as you're able to support yourself, or come out when you're able to support yourself---but until you have the means and you think they may kick you out i wouldn't come outright to them.

you could present as fem to your friends---no need to come out offically honestly i just dropped hints and they got it---, and male to your family (which is what you said i think), until you're able to move out (which i just said i feel very repetitive ong)

i felt the same way as you for wanting to come out, but pressured not to as i was my mom's only daughter (and oldest) with my two brothers and i felt really bad for wanting to be a guy because then my mom wouldn't have any girls to be girly with. (i wasn't very helpful with that pre-coming out eiteer)

but you're doing this for YOUR happiness, and thats something you should put first. if what your family wants is not what will make you happy, do what makes YOU happy.

i'm sorry i don't have any other decent advice for your family as i don't have a highly religious family like yours, but i hope this helps a little bit in affirmation at least ;)