Summer of 2023 and 2024 in between 9th grade? 🥲

[junior sedge]

During this time, one of my online ex I met online who I was dating with for 3 months, it was all last year, after we broke up I found out he was cheating on me. Later on the day we broke up, he made a whole discord group chat with his new girlfriend and his friends which were mine too (they’re were toxic as hell.) one of them was leaking where I was living in my country and state. Some of them threatened me to kill myself and saying I was trying to be a “attention seeker” and accusing of false cheating. My ex let’s say Max, he was in Europe. I would spend my nights of 9+ hours ahead of his time to play video games and also chatting with him, after the whole break up, I would cut myself during the summer time and stop eating less during school. I always feel constantly lost and still traumatized how I fell out of love. I don’t trust much anymore with some people. I constantly feel like people use my words and my personal stuff against me.

[peak scroll]

that sounds horrible ! im sorry you had to experience this ! firstly, selfharm never is a good solution, when you feel bad and sh, its not really gonna help you feel better -> you feel bad -> youre gonna sh again, i know its not easy to stop doing sh, theres a lot of alternatives to sh tho, you can look it up or i can give you some examples if you want to, if you ever want some support im always here for you ! my dms are open <3

[junior sedge]

thank you, I appreciate it. I knew it was an bad idea, I had no idea what I was doing, my mind was all over the place. I didn’t want to do it, I hurt myself in the end. I told my mother about it. I didn’t want her to feel worst she did sh and hearing from her own daugther was worst.

[peak scroll]

but you don’t have to continue like this ! you can do it and stop this habit, i believe in you <3

[junior sedge]

I did stop like 10 months ago, I don’t do it again. ❤️

[peak scroll]

oh that’s amazing ! i’m proud of you :D

[junior sedge]

Thank you this helps a a lot ^^

[junior sedge]

Is it okay if I do dm you?

[peak scroll]

ofc !