Uhm, I think my uncle committed suicide. It really makes me feel bad and sad for him. I knew he was struggling mentally, but everybody kept pressuring him to act 'normal'. No one even thought of helping him or making his mental health better. He was an alcoholic, and that alone made me suspect he wasn't okay on the inside and obviously needed emotional support. He felt like everybody hated him and I think that's the reason he killed himself. I didn't ask for details, because I don't wanna become more depressed than I already am but a lot of people are whispering about how he died, how much he bled from his head, etc. And it's all just making me nervous and anxious. I don't want to know these things. I just broke down crying because he was incredibly sweet to me, and to think he died or killed himself this brutally which means he thought he deserved every bit of that pain, and that just...breaks my heart. People always take depression/suicidal thoughts lightly until someone offs themselves.
I'm a survivor myself, with attempting almost 4-5 times and this just made me really sad. I always thought how my family would react if I ever succeeded in any one of my attempts. I know how it feels...to have those suicidal thoughts, thinking the suffering is inescapable, and that the only way you can escape is by...ending it all.
Losing someone to suicide sucks. It's like: the person was hurting so much that they decided it would be best if their life just ended.
It's most likely he killed himself because he was good at riding motorcycles and everything, so there's no way this is an "accident". He couldn't...take it anymore.
All this just reminds me to be thankful my suicide attempts failed. I'm going to not let this loss stop me from bettering my mental health, and honouring my uncle just by being hopeful and living for him, at least.
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raven sable
violet mango
I hope your uncle is in a better place, dearie and I hope you also get better too
sudden seal
fast oak
your uncle really didnt deserve all that his family telling to be "normal" is so crazy to me cant like cant you see that this guy is going through a hard time cmon family im really sorry for you but dont let this stop you in bettering yourself there will always be small things that remind you of him and it will be sad at that moment but youll get over it again and eventually realize how beatiful it is to have these memories of him