#My thingy with not crying during sad times

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fast vector
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So um it started a few years ago when my memaw and great aunt died. I wasn't crying, tbh I felt nothing. I was just staring at my mom with a blank expression. My siblings called me a heartless monster and said I had no heart. And I haven't cried when anyone died. It concerns me since they are still calling me those names sometimes. I just don't feel anything. Not that I don't like the person. Idk what's wrong with me.

lone wind
rugged magnet
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Imma be real I think you may wanna see a therapist or someone like that who knows anything about this type of stuff because I’d recon most people here ain’t qualified for this type crap

fast vector
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Fun fact: I'm terrified of therapy

rugged magnet
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Why

fast vector
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I've tried once and it made me so uncomfortable.

rugged magnet
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Maybe you just had a bad therapist

fast vector
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Like sehr uncomfortable

upbeat lagoon
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it can be uncomfortable at first

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give it a chance

fast vector
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I went for like multiple months

upbeat lagoon
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oh nvm

fast vector
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It doesn't help me

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She mostly talked about what my step dad does

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Well ex step dad

rugged magnet
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Well how about you change the topic the one at hand and not an ex step dad and it could go better

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That’s the best I can say

fast vector
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I don't go anymore. Probably won't till I move out. My mom only cares about my older sisters mental health. I had a panic attack in the dining room and my mom didn't notice even tho she was in the room right behind me. She only focuses on my older sister.

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It sucked

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I'm very good at hiding my emotions! So my mom doesn't know that my mental health is going down or that my memory is getting worse either!

rugged magnet
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Well given it seems like she couldn’t give a shit I think hiding it’s a waste of energy

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And unlike you seemingly shit family just know there’s no judgment from me and hopefully everyone else here I mean I know I have very little place to judge given I can barely cry myself and even then not half as hard as everyone else

fast vector
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Okie! You're my friend now!

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Yippe

austere scarab
fast vector
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Dang

visual vapor
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I myself dont cry much when my pets have passed but everyone mourns differently and that’s perfectly fine