#I really need help (trauma dump)

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harsh forum
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Right now everytime i saw my parents face I want to throw up. I get it I might sound like a bad kid but that's really what I felt

I cant really tell everyone everything they have done but here's some :

  1. They never give me privacy, my safest place is only discord and tiktok. Other then that they have track it and try to read all my message
    2.They always give eggsual or other hurting comments about my body, but they just say it was a joke and it doesn't count as that while infact they are
    3.The @buse, it's not that bad but i can guarantee you im almost half crazy from it
    4.They never really help anything with my mental health. I still remember how my mom always trying to make me think that i have autism (im sorry) even the last time at 5 yo they bring me to a therapist and doesn't accept the fact that im normal, im only a kid with trauma and not autism (sorry). And the academic pressure, i cant

Idk how long i can endure this. I want to study abroad so bad. Idc bout the risk I want to get out from this household

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I still remember how they blame me because my religion teacher sa and trying to 🍇 me. Im 6 yo at that time

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And because all of that i even develop hypersexuality ugh.. Everytime my parents have a fight or start @busing me i keep watching 🌽 to escape from it. I hate myself i am disgusting, i am trying to stop but i cant

harsh forum
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I have done an attempt of shuicide before but it didn't worked.

half jetty
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I would, if I were you, contact a crisis hotline and see what options there are because sh is not a healthy coping mechanism for anyone. Other than that maybe try getting out of the house more often and distract yourself with friends. I hope this helps!

harsh forum
half jetty
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Also if they ever get to violent or rough there is always the nuclear option the the police

harsh forum
half jetty
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Im pretty sure legally they have to

harsh forum
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I just hope my parents didn't really get that far

half jetty
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I hope the same

gilded gulch
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i'm in the same boat as you with the shitty parents,to manage and get away from them, I've been enrolling for summer programs across the globe so not only can i escape school sometimes for 2 months I can also be away from them during summer vacations. A lottt of them offer full scholarships esp if you have good scores in national level exams or half decent extra curriculars. I would suggest that you look into them <3 sending hugs, you can do this okay?

harsh forum