Im Lonely | Pridecord | Page 1

im male and 22. Ive basically been without friends or any significant social contacts for a couple of years now (around 5 years id say). The relation to my parents isnt really good. i have lost all my motivation and passion for anything and i dont really have any hobbies. I have never pushed people away and would always reply but i have A LOT of trouble reaching out to people. (always been like that, i dont know. i struggle a lot with approaching people or just sending a message to others). so i lost all contact i had with others because i stopped reaching out. the switch from highschool to college i think also played a role and covid in 2020 (both basically at the same time). i think i have severe Depression and social anxiety. i basically just spent my entire day alone in my room and i feel isolated. the first 1 or 2 years were kind of ok i think but i have been feeling worse and worse since. im always exhausted/tired and im also scared i might loose my job and fail college (i do both, im doing my bachelors rn). I had my first Job 2 years ago were i was told i was able to do my bachelor and masters at but 2 weeks before they wouldve extended my contract they said they wont extend it (not because of me and the guy that hired me didnt even know management wont extend the contract, was kind of a mess). that kind of threw all of my motivation for my college and job away because i really liked it and it took me 8 months to find a new one. I really want to find friends and it hurts more and more not having anyone. im always alone but i dont know how i can change that if i dont really know anyone. also im pretty reserved and shy so i dont really know why someone would even be friends with me. i also have a lot of trouble just beeing myself around others and even online and i feel like the more i know someone the more scared i am to share something about myself with them. I just wanted to let out my thoughts and situation here because i feel pretty stuck and hopeless.

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