TW probably swearing.

[tall lodge]

I’m scared.

I’ll happily sit here and type with my fucking hands to my heart’s content. But then again at the same time my mind’s racing with thoughts on what could happen within the next 10 months from now. I mean look at what’s happened. We’re 5 months in 2025 and trans people are already more fucked than ever.

People didn’t die for progression. Just for everything to be sent back to the way they had it, 30+ years later

Now I know there’s more going on but I’m trans. Or at least. I haven’t started. But I know what I am and what I want to be. The only thing is, should I really?

I want to fight. To mean something
But at the same time I’ve never felt as powerless as I do right now. People are dying and suffering and I’m just some fucking poser.

[vivid harness]

I'd say try your best to keep yourself hidden but also you should be able to show who you are. Keep yourself hidden from the public view; present yourself as your AGAB for now. But with your loved ones, your friends and those closest to you (if possible), then you should be yourself. Show who you are, don't be afraid then. Even living in a half truth, half lie, this will be better than shutting out a complete side of you.

And as for the last thing you said; you're not a poser. Just because you haven't started yet or you don't pass or anything else. You know who you are, and if you truly believe that's your gender and that you have a connection to that label; then you're not a fake. You're not a poser. You can be trans and not pass, you can be trans and not be able to afford the operations or the hormones. People may say that you are a poser because of this, but that's because they want to bring you down or they're new to the community.