#Forgotten bullying

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wet spear
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Im sorry when the title sound like a chapter in a game, don't know hot to make it better.

But I got bullied in school for being tran and gay, having to hide in the breaks in the basement, not liking being with my friends I had at this time becouse someone who defenetly didn't liked me also always theathened them and there family too. And missgandering/throwing stuff at me without the teachers carrying. (but I do have to say, i was a bit wierd, always having i little cutter knive with me bc I was a bit scared, sad always wierd in class, and before I got randomly adopted by my then friends i was in the breaks in a corner and read mangas)

Its maby now a year ago, i pretty much already forgiven it all, we were all younger, we didn't had many own thoughts, and maby didn't even know what bad they really did. I see that it should be okay, it has been a year too. But for some reason I still tear up about it.

I'm also a very chill and relaxed person, but everytime I tried out a jop or wanted to try there, everthing get bright and my legs all weak. So I'm not even sure what todo there (I'm sorry when my englich isn't very good TwT)

solid pagoda
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it’s totally fine when you feel emotional about these events, it’s really understandable that it makes you tear up even tho it was so long ago, you said you get afraid when for example trying a job, that’s totally normal, you get nervous which might make your legs weak, or do you think it’s because you have to interact with people? do you think it could be something like social anxiety? or do you think your past experiences with the bullying were the cause of that?

wet spear
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I'm not really sure, but so far it only happened when I had to work with others or when I had to work in the front of the store (where I didn't even had to interact with the people, I only had to work infront of them)

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